6 months of this Year flew pretty darn quick! for Me it's been a wild roller coaster on multiple matters of the Mind, Body, Spirit and Heart. It's been a real doozy especially with Identity shifting, wondering still, is there a date I finally reach waking up to become what I want to be or am I always in mid-process? While One can wake up to find they aren't who They want to be, They either accept their fate or choose to make the change with whatever time they have. I'm a firm believer that Tomorrow guarantees no one, It's how We frame it that it becomes to feel like a gift not a curse, See, Now is the Youngest You'll ever be, so the times have past, things didn't go as planned, yet here You are with an opportunity to make due with what You have and turn over a new leaf. Video Gamers would call it New Game+ all the EXP, insights, hows and how not toos but it stops there as reality always holds uncertainty Scripted Games do not, This is coming from a Over-thinking Strategic thinker over-planner whose now gone from dodging every catastrophe or pitfall, to waking up in one too many and now working on Execution and successfully implementing beautifully and astonshingly effectively, using the Courage, inner bravery and Psychopathic Confidence Courses by the legendary Dan Munro in that order to work up the nerve to act on the impulse through uncertainty phobic manic episodes and begin the identity shift by creating the evidence for My Information hoarding Mind to pick up and file as certainty The shift from being complacent dressed as acceptance due to assurances from dodgy General practitioners who fancy Themselves as Liver specialists that spiralled into bloodwork coming back bonkers!! (no fatty liver isn't normal like I was told and continued to a few weeks ago by a GP who looked like My Dead Dickhead Grandpa and left My condition unchecked for 9 bloody years I won't get back until I reversed it and got My Metabolism healthy again) That has since changed, upon reflection, It mainly happened upon Me going through the 8 phases of grief ( I know there's 5, but from Work Training, research and 6 months visits with a Psychologist, 8 was comprehensive.):

I've been meaning to add My thoughts and share with Brojos for some time. One thing I came across was My application towards Discipline, particularly to a new lifestyle I adapted on February 18th of this Year, when I recieved the most shocking health scare of My life on top of My already pr-existing Medical conditions like fatty liver and Sleep apnea and Mental health decline from unemployment, rejection at every job application, forced to leave workplaces deemed illegal, treated like a low class citizen, disrepect from heartless administrations. Betrayal by friends more concerned about their social status, even Family trying to shove their old world values from 1956, so much so, I went from denying Myself a shred of Carbohydrates from Breads, Pasta, Rice even some vegetables, eating only Meat, eggs, fish, leafy greens, walking and training after every single meal. I spent a quarter of my last Of My superannuation on Supplements that would enhance the results with wholefoods, each one to heal 10 major organs including the Pancreas and also My Mitchondria, the engine of every cell. After 6 weeks of discipline it became devotion, i was on a warpath, believe Me, so deep into it during 5 days fasting over easter holidays, testing My Mettle with not a lick of chocolate or any food for that matter, yet it didn't phase Me like it would have 8 years before in a row! 6 weeks in I managed to go in prolong fasts from 12 hours to 5 days and feel no shred of hunger, even wanting to break the 5 day mark, I plan on to as Ketosis helps Me run on My own fat stores, ignoring all the naysayers who'd rather hook me on a drug that will make my problem worse then depend on the next stage of it. What happened mant weeks in as I began to show up socially, people began to notice in worry "How the fuck did you lose over 25kg in 3 months? Its safe to lose 1 kg a week!" Hahaha that last sentence alone put Me off from this life changing regime for 9 straight bloody years, because I was so hard on Myself to want the results yesterday.