Just completed all sections of my Commitment Letter and realized my biggest obstacle was never the task itself. It's the little courtroom in my head that argues "there's plenty of time, I'll do it later" until later becomes panic mode. I named the whole loop today, gear by gear.

Hi I'm Mandy, Edit: Wow I sound so bitter. The Snapshot was full of questions that are hard to think about. I usually am highly masking, always smiling, trying to see the positive in everything so I'm not crumbling, but well not working on this fine early morning. I'm 36yo with a life that didn't go as planned. Always been different in some way, no matter the "group" I was in, never found where I belong even in my family. Add endometriosis that was undiagnosed for 7 years, operated last year, just to come back worse with adenomyosis. A long Covid in the middle of those years that felt like a steep cognitive decline. I spent years not recognizing myself in the mirror. I can now accept that i'm not the same, but I still don't know who I am or who I'm becoming. Self-diagnosed AuDHD, because I'm in France, and AuDHD is not even known... and getting an autism or ADHD assessment cost an arm and a leg, so imagine getting both. I work in Communication Strategy mostly, but I had many lives (tourism, events, client support specialist), and I do translation and interpretation sometimes as it was my first love. I'm trying to find my spark again, or a new spark, just something to feel like I'm living again, and not just surviving. I promise I'm usually more fun, I love to laugh (I make myself laugh a lot) and make others laugh.