I went into my 3 hour DDT dance rehearsal last night in a good mood. I did meditations, breathing exercises, and came here. This dance company is the only one I work with that goes for 3 hour rehearsals (most are 1-2), and I've really been struggling in that 3rd hour lately. But, I had completed the Day 5 Challenge the day before, fell asleep easily (had the random wakeup, but still quite happy with it!), and felt like I was prepared to manage all of the 3 hours with no problem, despite the immune flare I'm experiencing. It ended in disappointment and a flood of tears all over the dance floor. And extreme pain from the injury that occurred. I've been doing everything to heal the best that I can. And today, another dancer and the company director both texted to check in on me and ask how I'm doing, which was nice. I had a different rehearsal for a job tonight, and managed through it fine, though I only got 1 hour of sleep with all of the pain. A few of them had no idea that I was injured. I'm proud that I pushed through, but also wary of my tendency to put others before me. But luckily, the dance I learned tonight was not nearly as physically rigorous as the other. I told my boyfriend that I will tell my DDT director that I will only mark the dances this coming week to give my body time to heal. And told him to keep me accountable lol. Because I know that my people pleasing, perfectionist, overachiever self will push to do it all anyways, which will slow healing, and possibly make the injuries worse. Still waiting for the day that I successfully make it through the 3 hours good enough for my expectations like I used to. This may sound negative, but it's not. Half the battle is the mental anxiety and fear. All while being grateful that I can still dance, and needing to remind myself of that regularly! That good 3 hours is coming again, I can feel it!!!!

Daily Check-in - 2026-06-21 Activities ☀️ Morning Sunlight, 💧 Stayed Hydrated, 🌬️ Breathwork, 🥗 Healthy Eating, 🍺 No Alcohol, 🍬 No Added Sugar, ☕ No Late Caffeine, 🥩 Hit Protein Goal, 💚 Gratitude Practice, 🎯 Deep Work, 🌅 Focused Morning, 🧠 Learning, 🎓 Online Course, 🎸 Skill Practice, 👥 Quality Time, 🤝 Helped Someone, 👂 Active Listening Scores 😊 Happiness: 8/10 ⚡ Energy: 7/10 🎯 Focus: 8/10 😌 Calmness: 8/10 🔥 Motivation: 7/10 Reflection Well despite the fact that I nearly had a coaching call slip completely off my radar, I'm still feeling upbeat. My practice client has been opening up a lot about her journey with her daughter to which I can relate. I came away from the coaching session with a sense of pride simply because she used words such as authenticity, confidence, deep connection, trust - all to describe me. It's days like this where I think "You know what? I can do this". Anyway, last night I fell asleep working on worksheet 6 while sitting in bed. In the early hours of the morning, hubby took the laptop off me and convinced me (very hard apparently) to lie down. I continued this morning while my brain was fresh and despite things not working as they should, I didn't spiral downwards. I held my own and stopped when it was getting too much - I have learnt so much since joining ADHD Harmony - I am amazed at the difference between 6 weeks ago and now - it's really inspiring me to continue with everything and working to lose those masks! Yay for SUNDAY - FUN DAY!

Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and realized why every productivity system I've ever tried eventually broke - it wasn't discipline, it was that out of sight is literally out of mind for me. Turns out writing something down can trick my brain into thinking I already did it. Suddenly a lot makes sense.

Biggest insight: o didn’t expect this to be so much emotional work. My open loop is: sending an email about a long delayed project. One word for how I feel right now: seen

I had very specific things in mind I was hoping to accomplish when I joined the 6 week program for the first time through. Jim offered practical solutions and protocols and systems to put in place that went above and beyond my greatest expectations. Now, having gone through the 6-week program twice, I am amazed everyday at the continuous breakthroughs I continue to have, specifically revolving around my creativity and overcoming writer's block and working through things that were blocking my creative energy because my ADHD had gotten so out of hand and I didn't have systems in place to act as a scaffolding to help support all the other areas of my life. As I was writing a screenplay this morning, I was overcome with gratitude and a deep sense of relief about the fact that I'm able to harness my creative energy again in ways that I hadn't done for at least a year before joining the program, and that I haven't done well for several years before that. Thank you again, @Jim Ebbelaar . You probably don't realize it but you've been a huge champion for my dreams in that way and I can't thank you enough. 🙏🏼🫶🏼