For years my bedtime was a moving target. I'll go when I'm done. The problem: with an ADHD brain, you are never done. There is always one more message, one more tab, one more thing. So I changed the question. Not: "Am I done?" But: "IS IT BEDTIME?" That's it. One rule, no system, no schedule. 🛏️ My bedtime is set. I choose the hour. ⏰ What isn't finished by then, isn't finished. Tomorrow exists. ❓ The only question I ask at night is: is it bedtime? Yes? Then I go. Not because I'm strict. Because I'm done negotiating with a brain that will always find one more reason to stay up. Sleep is the first domino, not the last. 🌱 Anyone that wants to borrow my question? Please feel free to do so 🤣👍

During the Day 6 call, I realised the opportunity to use Sage a bit longer was a real gem. So I asked it a question after the call. Apparently, my responses to her follow-up counted as 2 more questions, so that was my 3 question limit used up. A bit frustrating, but another opportunity tomrrow... I kept checking throughout Tuesday if I could ask my questions, but it wasn't until maybe 11pm. I went ahead because I wasn't sleepy anyway - that chat continued over midnight. Today at 10pm UK time I still don't have access, and I really have to go to to sleep. So no Wednesday questions possible. I'd worked out a plan based on being able to ask 9 more questions this week, hopefully including Friday. But if I'm right about the way the 24hr timer works and wrong that it is available on Friday, that reduces to only 3 questions. I'm Audhd, and the autism side is so worked up by it being impossible to get clarity on how this works. I've reached out by email, by message here, in the community. I even asked Sage and it did not know. I am not demanding more - I realise what we've been given free is very generous. I just don't cope with not having the right data to make a plan, and I struggle with having to change a plan because it was based on things I didn't think I was understanding wrongly. I just want precision about what "in 24hrs" means and what time on Friday access is closed. I'm very frustrated.

...Which hits a bit harder than it used to now that I've been learning that I feel behind in my own life. Also, I don't like feeling exposed or sharing but I figured I'd challenge myself to be brave and at least share the snippets my assessment provided me as I answered each of the five sets of three questions: "1) Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and already realized something wild: my "I can't get started" problem isn't about laziness. It's that I learned somewhere that if I'm not already great at something, I shouldn't be doing it at all. Even things I love. That voice has been running the show for years and I never named it until now. 2) Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that the four roles I play (perfectionist, people pleaser, control freak, and the invisible one) aren't my personality. They're guards I built to protect a creative kid who loved to sing, write poems, and live inside her imagination. Turns out my "authentic self" isn't someone I need to become. She's someone I already was. 3) Just realized the voice in my head telling me I'm "just lazy" isn't even mine - it's an inherited script. And the kicker? I already have evidence against it. I cook meals for my future self. I record myself singing and it sounds good. Turns out the story I've been believing doesn't match the receipts. 4) The mirror principle just clicked. My overflowing inbox isn't a productivity issue - it's the exact same futility I feel about my emotions, my music, my whole life. More keeps coming in than I can process. Turns out the question underneath all of it is the same one: will I ever catch up to my own life? 5) Just completed all 5 sections of the Awakening Assessment, and I realized my "ideal day" wasn't really about performing - it was about finally being told I was "good enough to be there." Turns out I've been measuring my impact by whether other people take my advice, instead of by what I actually offered. Wild what 15 questions can surface"

My Big Rocks: health n wealth. I work on having a nervous system that is safe n regulated. I build on my financial goals seriously, step by step. I am here because i cant frigging live like this anymore. I am at my end of rope. I commit to ‘doing’, taking baby steps. When it gets hard, I will do the bare minimum protocol i set for myself.

Waking up with feeling dread is a terrible. Before ADHD Harmony, it was common for me. Now, I can’t remember the last time that happened to me. Jim’s protocols work!!!