My Big Rocks: website and finances. I am here because I want to learn how to work WITH my brain. I am tired of sabotaging myself. I commit to showing up, completing the work, doing the exercises, and engaging with the community. When it gets hard, I will breathe, review these notes, reach out to this wonderfully supportive community, return to my Big Rocks, do my bare minimum protocol, and NOT FORGET why I started.

📅 Daily Check-in - May 31, 2026 💭 Reflection: "I've just been chatting with Sage about values and living my life by them and I mentioned that I haven't been checking in or getting involved in the discussions in the cohort on school and I put that down to my ADHD kicking in, you know, losing interest, boredom all of that and Sage suggested that's got nothing to do with ADHD and has got more to do with what matters to me and what might be performative. That's something I'm going to have to sit with. It was a good conversation, interesting conversation, needs some reflection." 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 8/10 ⚡ Energy: 7/10 🎯 Focus: 7/10 😌 Calmness: 8/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 9/10 🔥 Motivation: 7/10 ⭐ Average: 7.7/10 ✅ Activities from today: 🛏️ Good Sleep 🌙 Early Bedtime ☀️ Morning Sunlight 🚶 Walk 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol 🍳 Home Cooked Meal ✨ Positive Mindset 🎯 Deep Work

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realized the "urgency" I've carried for years isn't restlessness or anxiety. It's my brain reacting to time differently than everyone else in the room. No wonder standing still in a morning huddle feels impossible. First time I've seen it named.

Good morning guys! Yesterday was quite rough on me..my daughter left for the summer.. and let's just say last summer her dad played games and I barely got to talk to her etc... so a LOT of emotions that I had to keep under control for days straight etc . But all of that to say, the URGE is to "stay in bed all day and try to deny what is going on". Right? But this is where I'm doing things DIFFERENTLY this summer: I'm showing up for ME. Because CATHY still is in this house. So that being said, I thought of something to try as a "framework" for my day, at least for today. To both hopefully give me that safe feeling of structure while also giving me the needed feeling of flexibility and freedom.. And I've decided to call it "9-5; 9-5". Here is what I'm going to do: From 9 am to 5 pm today, every hour I will set timer for 20 minutes and do SOMETHING focused. Whether that is drinking water. Whether that is eating. Whether that is exercising. Etc. But the other 40 minutes of every hour can be anything, nothing etc. The OTHER "9-5" will be 9 pm to 5 am. And the rule with that is I need to be IN bed from 9 pm to 5 am. Why am I doing this? Because I have a busy day tomorrow. And this week (already overwhelming me 😅) and for once, I am being CONSIDERATE of THOSE Cathy's. Why is this hard? Because I technically don't have to do ANYTHING today. but my life isn't how I want it etc. So if I don't give my brain at least little focused jobs it WILL take over and I will just suffer today frankly. Anyway, overall I'm excited to try this! Because it will make doing my streaks feel even more fulfilling. And I'm reminding myself, I STILL have flexibility with this rhythm. A LOT of flexibility actually. But this will hopefully ensure I don't end up watching 7 hours of TV straight (or more) AND end up regretting that. As an example. Historically, the day after daughter leaves i am in shock, I suffer, etc. I'm NOT doing that to myself today. Just because I don't have a partner or pet or "family" to rally around me doesn't mean I don't get to rally for myself.