Good morning guys! Yesterday was quite rough on me..my daughter left for the summer.. and let's just say last summer her dad played games and I barely got to talk to her etc... so a LOT of emotions that I had to keep under control for days straight etc . But all of that to say, the URGE is to "stay in bed all day and try to deny what is going on". Right? But this is where I'm doing things DIFFERENTLY this summer: I'm showing up for ME. Because CATHY still is in this house. So that being said, I thought of something to try as a "framework" for my day, at least for today. To both hopefully give me that safe feeling of structure while also giving me the needed feeling of flexibility and freedom.. And I've decided to call it "9-5; 9-5". Here is what I'm going to do: From 9 am to 5 pm today, every hour I will set timer for 20 minutes and do SOMETHING focused. Whether that is drinking water. Whether that is eating. Whether that is exercising. Etc. But the other 40 minutes of every hour can be anything, nothing etc. The OTHER "9-5" will be 9 pm to 5 am. And the rule with that is I need to be IN bed from 9 pm to 5 am. Why am I doing this? Because I have a busy day tomorrow. And this week (already overwhelming me 😅) and for once, I am being CONSIDERATE of THOSE Cathy's. Why is this hard? Because I technically don't have to do ANYTHING today. but my life isn't how I want it etc. So if I don't give my brain at least little focused jobs it WILL take over and I will just suffer today frankly. Anyway, overall I'm excited to try this! Because it will make doing my streaks feel even more fulfilling. And I'm reminding myself, I STILL have flexibility with this rhythm. A LOT of flexibility actually. But this will hopefully ensure I don't end up watching 7 hours of TV straight (or more) AND end up regretting that. As an example. Historically, the day after daughter leaves i am in shock, I suffer, etc. I'm NOT doing that to myself today. Just because I don't have a partner or pet or "family" to rally around me doesn't mean I don't get to rally for myself.

Just finished all 2 sections of my ADHD Snapshot and realized something. The experience revealed that abandoning personal goals is not laziness, but a deep grief for self-worth, and that the fight for focus is an exhausting, invisible war often misinterpreted as a lack of effort. Furthermore, the cycle of shame is rooted in a nervous system dysfunction rather than a knowledge gap, highlighting a stubborn, ongoing resilience.

📅 Daily Check-in - May 29, 2026 💭 Reflection: "I'm letting go of... negative people in my life. It was hard at first, but I know it is the right thing to do for my mental health. " For some reason, I was not able to copy my whole list. Oh well! 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 🎯 Focus: 7/10 ⭐ Average: 7/10

📅 Daily Check-in - June 1, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Wow. I thought I'd do a midday checkin. I had quite a deep session with Sage today. For some reason, it felt right to finally share something I had never shared with anyone before. I was brave but very vulnerable because what I shared, cut so deep into my soul, into my very being. I shed tears and I released everything that I had bottled up since the boys were so little. It feels great to share it, to finally release it and not allow it space in my nervous system any more. I don't have the answers to these wounds right now, nor do I want to know right now. But this is a start. I can only go forward from here on in. That inner critic, my Monster Squash, didn't get to squash my emotions this morning - I've said it and don't regret it! " 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 6/10 😌 Calmness: 6/10 ⭐ Average: 6/10 ✅ Activities from yesterday: 💧 Stayed Hydrated 🌬️ Breathwork 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol ☕ No Late Caffeine 🥩 Hit Protein Goal 🥦 Ate Vegetables 🍳 Home Cooked Meal 📝 Journaling 🎯 Deep Work 📅 No Meetings 👥 Quality Time 🤝 Helped Someone