You know what, Jamie said to post positives and even negative stuff. So here goes.... I feel like jelly on a plate that's getting shaken. My head this last couple of days is pretty scrambled. My cycle is due (hormones are a b**ch), and I know I feel so much level headed after. But I'll be honest, this last few days has been a struggle. I'm feeling sad from the funeral on Tuesday despite rekindling a friendship. The "phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones"; well I've usually got a thick skin, but coupled with the funeral and hormones, some words this week that have been thrown really and are really cutting deep. And I'm struggling to shift the low mood. I'm still doing my macros, my steps, my exercise. I'm distracting myself with other things and really getting stuck into the time with the kids and that makes me so happy. I even bought myself flowers. But alone time at the minute just feels that much harder. Rather than feeling good and strong in the gym, I'm feeling inadequate, I have imposter syndrome and starting to doubt myself and my confidence is rocked so I feel I've gone into my shell. And why? All because of a bit of emotion, hormones and some words... I feel silly posting this, as I'm usually able to pivot but today feels like a struggle.

School back today so back to the gym this morning after just over a week due to my painful wrist and blisters and just not being in the right mind set but still went out walking. Blisters are covered wrist strapped, leg work only and you know what it feels good to have exercised properly wonder if my legs will wanna work later 😀 20min bike 2 sets on leg press 1 set on adduction 1 set abduction then 30min treadmill walking at different inclines

back to it, not been posting lately as been battling an awful case of flu , so had to have a week off training, but feeling good today back to it hopefully not lost too much 🤣🤌

My niece and I love taskmaster, so last year I made a similar type game for us to play. Now every time they are here she expects one. I can’t decide which was the funniest thing, making my sister-in-law plank while my father failed to name animals in alphabetical order, my parents then painting a portrait of the dog, mum using her big toe and dad his chin, which ment that dad went to lunch at a restaurant with a blue tinged beard or my sister in law shouting at my brother as he was pulling her hair while trying to get her in and out of a sleeping bag. Definitely don’t do that the day after an abs work out, I can’t move 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Just spent the weekend in the Yorkshire dales, was really nice. Although I had no phone signal and no WiFi which is maybe a good thing, done quite a bit of walking. Done a hill walk and got hit with a snow blizzard at the peak and also went round some waterfalls, all in all a good relaxing weekend.