In June I decided I was going to close my business down and look for a new corporate job. This was a decision that I didn't take lightly but achieved when I asked myself what's next. It became longer and more treacherous than I had imagined. It called into question so many things and really broke me down a few times. Thanks to the process and the support of this community, I was able to connect very deeply with authentic self and remove the barriers that were keeping me from finding the right opportunity. I'm excited to announce on my 44th birthday today that I accepted a job offer. I can directly attribute this to the work that and support of this group as I turned up in my most recent interviews with focus and without fear. You are important. This work is important. Use these tools. Onward gentlemen.

I finally reached the 490m 14th at my club in two during a competition!! I was up there with two lads half my age. In spectacular form we walked away from 3 eagle opportunities with par, par, bogey!! 🤣🤣🤣

Today, I wanted to share a recent incident which helped me release a whole world of stuck energy. Something I wasn't even aware that was there until I spewed it all out in one of the most satisfying moments of 2026 (so far). As you may or may not know I am currently dealing with a failed relationship with 2 boys in the middle. We are currently still living under the same roof, however we have not shared a bed for more than 3 years (maybe it's 4 now.) Recently we decided to take charge of the kids for one week at a time. Last Sunday (9 days ago) was Marga's last day and even so, I asked the boys if they wanted to go and watch the senior's rugby match as I didn't think A, she was aware of it and B that she'd really want to go. She piped up on Sunday that she wanted to take them and that by promising them a day out with breakfast I was somehow ruining her plans. “It's my week with the kids so I will take them, I'm in charge.” She said the 4 of us could go but after her little telling off I didn't feel like being anywhere near her so I thanked her and went to play golf. Afterwards, I met up with the young lady I am interested in, so it really was a win win! Fast forward to this Sunday. She had been away all week and wasn't witness to a rather heated debate between the boys and 2 of their friends over a game of Minecraft. Long story short, my eldest set up a server for the 4 of them to play. He lent the password to one guy so he could open the server while they were out at the beach. He then gave it to the other guy who went into creator mode to get a “load of loot” without actually earning it. Basically he cheated. When the boys saw this they were angry and were dealing with it through Discord. In his anger my youngest went into the cheater's base and TNTed all of his stuff. This really kicked off the argument and they were going back in foth for nearly an hour. It was getting quite late and they were all being told to close down for the night and decided to hold court the following day to resolve the issue.

This week has been wildly validating for this work. I used to be fixed on money & account balances (safety / worried about the future). It was my life ring. Having 'enough'... Saving 'enough'. Today November 20, I have less money in my bank accounts than I can ever (not exaggerating) remember... and I'm not that concerned about it. I know I can earn more, I know I can adjust resources & expenses. I know I can balance the equation. I also know there are many roads to a different $ place. I see dates in the future when things will shift. I know I am capable to move through this season. This level of comfort is so foreign, I haven't quite landed on what I think or feel about it yet. But I love the peace.

Recently I’ve hit a good amount of resistance when setting aside time to do the Work. I joined our calls and brought my questions and thoughts and current state to the group for guidance, and without fail these fine men helped me find out what I needed. We each can see these things from a different perspective, and that’s why I know I’m here, to offer my perspective and knowledge to those in need. *And that’s why it’s important to join the calls when you can!* =D My inner dialogue was loud… it was recommended to just listen to it for a few minutes, what’s being said, give it attention. A few minutes go by “okay Nick, this is a safe space, you are never going to be punished for your emotions, even if you’re mad at me, your mom, your dad, anyone.” My intentions have been to let my inner child hear this and feel it. So what comes out? Something I thought I handled. I was confused to see the memory come forward, filled with confusion. “I don’t get it! But I’m fucking scared.” As an adult NOW I can look at that moment, my mother being completely wasted after drinking a bottle of rum and driving me and my sister around at the age of (13?) I can look at that memory as an adult “that’s a sickness, she’s always struggled with this, she’s only a human” and I can defend her. BUT when I was a child I could not comprehend the fear, confusion, or guilt of it. So thank you to the guys that were available and listened and spoke up. *The release was so strong I was left shaking for about 10 minutes afterwards.