A Hard Days Work · The Lighthouse Project

A Hard Days Work

I spent the day in my garage undertaking a pretty intimidating project. Insulating and drywalling my garage, my oldest son (only 2) and I really enjoy playing in there but it's so darn cold! So I took it upon myself to figure out what the hell I need to do in order to make the space habitable. I spend a few hours in my garage today, music and podcasts the entire time and when I finished all I could think about was my Uncle Michael...

My Uncle has early onset Alzheimer's Disease and has had it since 2020. I've spent a lot more time as a caretaker for him since I found out but through this Work discovered exposing myself to caretaking for a loved one is more than I can handle.

Once I finished today, and completely exhausted and sweaty, I just stared in admiration and cried, thinking of only my Uncle because of work ethic he taught me... knowing that if he was still of sound mind he would have loved to have helped me today. In the moment I really thought I had released the emotion, and was listening and present, but the rest of the afternoon was effected by that moment. I knew it, could feel it, didn't really know they "why" just that there was Work to do.

It brought me back to Michael, I feel I was attaching to some of the emotion thinking I could keep a piece of him still alive and well and of sound mind. But I was able to release it, and let it go as powerful as it was I had to sit with that emotion witnessing for 10-15 minutes it felt.

*Sharing my hard work because I AM proud of it! More not pictured, but you get the idea.

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