Just finished listening to this conversation on replay. @Billy Alten , welcome! I dug the conversation around the new level of emotion and expectation that comes from doing this work. You definitely reach a new level of expectation and the joy that you can find and it becomes self-fulfilling motivation keep doing the work. Also I totally get the idea of the relief from diagnosis as well as it just being another point of avoidance. I myself had a very difficult time dissolving the labels in my life. They gave me so much value but it was Fool's gold.

@Nick Valdovinos my entire family operates that way. For instance my family believes my sister needs to get a job so that she can afford the medication that she needs to take in order to keep her job. I keep telling them that unless she heals she will never be able to perform. It's like asking her to run a marathon on a broken ankle where the prize for running is another broken ankle.

This year was especially filled with gratitude. I could have fallen into old habits and been resentful, especially while out of work... but something is deeply connected to what I have and it felt great. Of course the normal family bullshit was thrown at me, but I even appreciated that as well. So grateful for my wife, my kids, this group of men and the path we have all chosen.

I have finally learned who I am and enjoy it. Yet I get glimpses of what I could be, what I should be. I want to be that person... the person I deserve. The person my family deserves.

@River Phillips welcome brother

@Chris Fletcher welcome my man

It felt overwhelming this morning when my oldest was inconsiderate, deliberately stalling, and then physically abusive - all before getting out the door for school. I was triggered pretty quickly by this. I felt helpless because my first impulses of CONTROL, PUNISHMENT, and ANGER were not only overwelming, but also not actual options in the matter. I could also tell my wife didn't have answers either. Yet she reminded me to step away after being triggered and not act on these impulses. I am grateful for that reminder. Later this morning I went into the Warrior Module and did Meditation #2, (which I'm very well acquainted). It was a challenge, but I eventually felt connected to the feeling of anxiety, of fear, and later of not feeling safe. I was able to detach from that feeling which provided some calm, some relief. This continues to be the root, the profound and persistent message that drives up many of my triggers. I am grateful that I had "on demand" access to the meditation to do 'the work'. As always, it's a work in progress, but I feel like I did the right thing today. Looking foward to the Warrior Call this morning - though I can only attend for the first half. See you there gents.