I'm delighted to announce that the film we made in November last year is finished and ready to launch to the public. I'd like to say a special thanks to everyone that was vulnerable enough to share their stories - @Ben Valdovinos @Andrew Rotter @Bryant Goodall @Nick Valdovinos @Sam Johnson @Patrick Camman and to the talented team that made the film - @Marcus Ubungen @Donavan Sell This work can life changing for everyone that goes through the pain and comes out the other side. You guys are the first to see it. Please watch and let us know what you think. Watch link - https://youtu.be/4ldWtO4-Cm8

4 weeks into the new job. Triggers galore but also many key wins. I've taken to really leaning on my daily 'check-in's' to monitor and manage the stress. One thing that is recurrent is this sneaky feeling that I'm not doing enough (already). Confidence is there that I can do this, and I show up in every way that I can and will succeed - hell it's actually very similar to my last couple of corporate roles. But I get a ping from my inner child saying, I don't feel safe. You've slacked before, and it's cost you. Nothing lasting, only fleeting. A subtle poke. So, during my 'check-in' yesterday, I witnessed a sadness that turned to anger. And I recalled a memory, fuzzy as it may have been, around the need to satisfy my father. It seemed more of a compilation, an amalgam, than a clear single memory. I sat with it. And as it filled me, in my own voice, I heard someone say, "let that shit go." I found myself to me smirking, and I then said, as the witness, 'you are enough'. I felt a release, then a rush of gratitude. I felt a 'thank you' and a sigh of relief. What's interesting more is that after that, when I started my day, a great number of triggering opportunities came up, typical self-doubt, political drama and such, and I felt relieved that I wasn't attaching to them. I appreciate this space and this work. =) Onward, gentlemen.

This weekend I did something I didn't think I would ever do and I got married. My history with this particular establishment is not a particularly good one. My dad has been married and divorced 3 times (on his 4th engagement) and my parents divorce was the source of most of my childhood trauma. It's fair to say I had a lot of resistance to the whole thing. I've been with Lavinia for 18 years and we have 3 amazing children. I have always been committed to the family but I always saw marriage as an unnecessary step in the relationship. I asked Lavinia to marry me around 5 years ago and thought I had got away with not getting married until a meeting with our accountant forced our hand 6 months ago (romantic, I know). This last 3 months has been a very interesting journey. It has triggered emotions from my childhood, relationships that 'might have been' have been put to bed. I have had to look deeply at the stories I had around marriage and my aversion to fully committing to my partner of 18 years. The result, as always, of moving towards and through the pain are transformational. I have further integrated the rejected boy, the 25 year old that didn't commit to his Italian girlfriend, the man that was keeping part of himself safe. I feel more grounded, more present, more committed AND I got to experience an incredible day full of love and happiness. I often preach moving towards the joy and living from this point but often this can be found on the other side of our greatest pain.

In June I decided I was going to close my business down and look for a new corporate job. This was a decision that I didn't take lightly but achieved when I asked myself what's next. It became longer and more treacherous than I had imagined. It called into question so many things and really broke me down a few times. Thanks to the process and the support of this community, I was able to connect very deeply with authentic self and remove the barriers that were keeping me from finding the right opportunity. I'm excited to announce on my 44th birthday today that I accepted a job offer. I can directly attribute this to the work that and support of this group as I turned up in my most recent interviews with focus and without fear. You are important. This work is important. Use these tools. Onward gentlemen.

For those of you in Northern California. We’re doing a Sauna Sunday Reset to start the year! Sauna, cold plunge, fire pit. This location is right on the river in Petaluma. It will be a mix of guys from the group and some new faces. We did something very similar at the October retreat and it was a favorite. This is at Sundrop on Sunday, Jan 4 at 3:00 PM. You’ll need to book your own $45 ticket directly on Sundrop’s website. Check the events calendar. @Mike Atkinson @Andy Chick @Mariangeles Chinelatto @Michael Olague-Llamas @Billy Alten @Nick Valdovinos @Donavan Sell @Marcus Ubungen @Ryan Pinto @Andrew Rotter