I planned to attend all 5 webinars — I even arranged my work schedule around them. In reality, I only made it to the first one live. The insights I got there, and the summary created afterward, hit me so hard that I was “switched off” for the rest of the week. Even though I was home, I simply couldn’t join the other sessions. (English isn’t my first language either, so that added another layer.) I’m grateful for @Tracey Weiss’s posts and @Jim Ebbelaar 's emails — they kept me going. This weekend I watched everything and completed the whole process. And now I finally understand: – why I freeze when I need to act – why I only function in crisis – why I’ve never truly fit into any community – what it costs me to ignore my own needs – which belief system I need to shift into to be effective – and what core feeling has been missing from my sense of peace These realizations were both liberating and frightening. I know I have a lot of work ahead if I want to build a life I actually want to live. But I also received something to hold onto: maybe my story can help others facing similar challenges. When I first read the summary, I lay there for hours, unable to move. Later that evening, I read it again. And now I’m smiling — because I know I can create the life I want. Thank you for letting me be here.

I was not surprised by my report. I loved it, yes. There were sentences formulated in a way I couldn't, which makes a good start for further self-inquiry. What I loved most was taking my questions to the chat-AI afterwards. I got concrete, doable steps to work on my "stop blocks". I am excited about what could come from implementing them. What means the most is the recognition of how my brain works. I never knew that there were others operating in the same way. This- this makes me cry. 🧡🧡