The mirror principle just clicked. I just realized the exhaustion I feel about driving to see friends shows up before I even leave the house. It's not the people draining me. I'm already running on empty.

The belief that's been holding me back most, my old belief: 'That giving my personal projects full love and attention was wrong, so I shouldn't start, or if I started, I should give up and get out of there.' Where it came from, a brief origin: 'Personal interests and pursuits, especially ones different to those of my family and what the cultural emphasises, were not affirmed, or even seen, by family. And certainly not welcome in church (I love my church and appreciate much good that is in it and that I get from it. It's just limited, or different, in what it prefers and likes to focus on. I don't mind all that it gives and does, but I have a little more to give, and to do, in my own way).' My new code, my reframe -this can be my future self statement: "I am the kind of person who doesn't need to completely, and only fit into my family and church identities to be valuable. God made me with unique gifts and ideas, and I can be someone who humbly and gratefully receives them, and puts them to use, in love for Him and others, regardless of what anyone else thinks. I am becoming someone who no longer needs to define myself, by who I was or had to be, to survive. I can become someone who will finally 'sing his song' because that is why I am here. (I'm using 'song' in a figurative or poetic way. I like singing but am thinking more in terms of sharing insights and thoughts, etc.) Debugging in progress...