You know I can't do anything in a simple way. 📅 Daily Check-in - July 17, 2026 💭 Reflection: "I had a rough day yesterday. I fell asleep around 8:00ish and "woke up" around 10:30pm. I got up, and did my nighttime routine...pee...and went to bed again. I woke up around 8:00ish this morning. I looked at the clock a little after 8:00, but I had been somewhat awake before then. I received an alert on my phone I never had before, "Very High Sleep Score". I look and it says 98. Now that I look at it, I napped from 8:51 to 11:04 last night, according to the watch/phone connection. With that and my normal sleep, it says 9hr 15min. Most of my sleep is core sleep, but not as much in deep sleep as I would like, but I can't decide that. "today, I need more deep sleep. Brain, give me 2." That doesn't happen. Maybe in time if I'm consistent. I'm in an OK mood today. Not the greatest. After I woke up, I went on my front porch and sat for a few minutes in the son. I noticed my peace lily I was given when my mum died. It had some brown leaves, so I ripped them off. I didn't have scissors, will use those next time. I pulled out some weeds and wondered about them. I took a picture and sent to Chip (ChatGPT). Chip said they looked like baby lilies and how to plant them. I immediately put them back in the pot. Then Chip told me that the plant had some brown tipped leaves due to this and/or that. So, I gave it a good watering so that water came out the bottom. Chip was happy with that. So, it 9:45am, and about to have coffee...finally. 1 cup is what I usually have. I may do another. I actually feel tired again and probably could nap. I hope I'm not going into a downward spiral into a depressed state again. And as I type this, my dad calls. OK. Survived that. Don't feel any better, he started telling me about his great nephew got married. I was surprised my aunt, his grandmother, didn't let me know as we are close. My dad then started on something and I said I don't want to hear about drama in Massachusetts. He said to stop jumping down his throat. I said I'm not. I don't need to know drama in another state with people I don't see or have dealings with (not close relatives). He's finally getting in to see his doctor. He has something going on with his elbow. I had something similar, but after a compression sock for some time, it went away. His is a little bigger and he said he feels it and thinks there is bone loss and that he'll probably be sent to a specialist. We'll see. He's overly cautious since his brother has just finished, or about to finish cancer treatment. HPV cancer in his mouth. Something he got years ago in his wild years, now he's in his 70's. It sat dormant for decades and showed itself last summer. He never knew he had it the std until last year when this all came to light. That's usually where HPV Cancer shows up, is in the mouth/throat area, not the elbow. If it makes my dad feel better, great. The original purpose of the call?? My brother actually sent my dad back some money and it came to me and I need to transfer to him. SMH He's far from destitute to panic about needing it right away, especially when he was going to "throw a couple hundred I could borrow" to help with Lily's expenses. Nope! I can go on and on, but that's for Jim's Twin (JT). Well, enough of this for a check in. Why do I have to talk so much.... well type so much. You would have thought I spoke all of this. I seem to be doing nothing but brain dumping lately, but I guess it's good to get it out than to let it sit in my head. Depression, please don't rear your ugly head again. Stay down. That's why I take medication. Have a good day "JT"."

📅 Daily Check-in - July 20, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Since my hand surgery/carpal tunnel surgery, I have had a pain that goes along the line of the thumb at the palm. I can't put weight on that. I'm not sure why. The only thing that would rest near there is the brace I have to wear for three months at night. But, if that was the case, it should hurt for a short time in the morning, not all day. I guess I'll find that out at my next appointment in a few weeks. I'm trying to keep my hydration up. I have to go for bloodwork again in a couple weeks before an appointment with my PCP on 8/3 to make sure my kidney's are functioning properly. Apparently, my last test wasn't good, and we want to blame it on dehydrated. So now, I'm trying to drink at least 64oz of water. Better than what I was drinking. I spent time with my youngest (18) last night molding clay blocks into some piece of art that we would eventually then bake. He is so creative and thoughtful. He made many small gifts for many different ones in our congregation and his friends. He made a penguin that looks awesome. The reason he made that? He thinks that one in our congregation is a good father to his 3 kids (14,20,23). He asked me which animal was a good father. I said a penguin because the dad is responsible for the egg (35-75 days depending on the species and does not eat during that time.). I had to look up the stats. Anyways, I thought of that because of the movie "Happy Feet". Anyways, he thinks he's doing a great job as a dad and made it for him. Maybe, I'll get a penguin someday. lol I am not creative at all. I played with this blue clay for I don't know how long. I found a mold of a bee, and pushed the clay in. Then took it out so I had a bee. I cut off the excess and rolled out a piece and turned into a heart, and remaining I made a rolled a piece out to make a "stand" for it and some clay underneath the heart to try and have it all connected. The work of a 4th grader, but I made something. lol I slept OK. I did wake up for 1.5 hours, but still ended up with over 8 hours sleep because I didn't wake up until 10:45. Not sure what happened there. If we take the 1.5 hours out, that still was decent sleep.

With things online. Do best with Physical - hearing -seeing etc. not sure if this is something I signed up for paid for or how to use it or take advantage of any benefits🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️