Hi friends. It's 1am. I had physical therapy during the session today. And then in the 12 hours since I've been hyperfocusing the entire time (well I did eat a couple of times, and drink water, and recycle that water 😁) on a super knotty, urgent, time-sensitive, high-impact, complicated thingie with my health insurance. The first part of this had to be resolved by midnight. My body, mind and energy are tired, but I hoped to at least taste today's meeting before bed. I don't see it in the classroom. Does it exist? Coming later? I feel like Day 1 really kicked out a lot of habit patterns for me. That's a huge win for regulation -- and yet, also, because I participated thoroughly and many parts of me said, "Whaaaa?!?, I've been dysregulating a lot in the short run since. But a direction became very clear. I feel tired and grateful.