So I was just doing my own thingy being crafty , coloring and stuff and I came across this page and thought it would be a good idea to post it on here .

Pfffff here we go. Reading it back, it’s a longer story than expected. Growing up I moved a lot, got divorced parents but on the weekdays I was with my mom, weekends with dad. (sorry if I have my terms wrong, English isn’t my first language) In primary school I had some friends 2nd till 7th grade. 1st till 2nd year I can’t remember, changed schools like 3 times. At 7th we moved again (still primary school) and had no real friends the next 2 years. After I got to secondary school. I had a friend group inside school but didn’t meet after like never. So I spent the afternoons and evenings alone. Aswell as holidays. This was for about 4years. The I got to Vocational education: and once more I had no friends, never hang out with someone. At the time I worked aswell but also no friends to hang out with. This was for about 2,5 years. Nowadays I met the best colleagues in my life, but I’m constantly doubting if they see me as a friend.or if they are just tolerating me to be nice. I went on vacations with them, I’ve been to someone’s house. But it was always with a group. Never 1:1 (except 1/2 times over the last 4 years). On free days I’m constantly alone. Not because I don’t want to connect but I feel like I change the moment someone gets close. There is 1 person in particular, who I am really thankful for. But also with him I don’t know if he’s just being nice or genuine. Has someone advise to get some clarity? Or how to genuinely connect. I’m tired of the constant doubt

Just looking for some clairity.. I think I did it to myself though I tried having a conversation with my mom and it didn't go well . I want to know If I did something wrong so here's how the conversation went . ME : I texted her and I was like I know we argue or whatever but I'm still your daughter and your my mom and I'd like to have a relationship with you MOM : I don't wanna have a relationship with someone who tells the honest truth about people . ME: Are you saying that because I tell you what my boundaries are and you don't follow them because to me it's 100% what that sounds like . MOM: I am saying that because when you tell me everything that's wrong it brings me down . ME: well my whole life you've brought me down mom I don't mean to be rude but I'm kinda the way I am because of the childhood trauma from you . MOM: I'm done having this conversation with you can you just go back to acting like I didn't exsist thank you . In the last text I sent her I can kinda see a little bit maybe I gave her an attitude but I mean if someone's not following my boundaries I don't know how to word my response . WHAT REALLY GOT ME WAS THE GO BACK TO ACTING LIKE SHE DIDNT EXISIST. I never was doing that and wouldn't I know she's made mistakes but shes still my mother .

And just like that, we are back to our WINS-day 🏆 What’s going well? What are you leaving behind? Where are you focusing your energy and time towards? A win can be as simple as: I ate two fruits today. Or as grand as: I closed a massive sale for my company. Or as powerful as: I didn’t text my ex. Or as honest as: I’ve been struggling lately, but I didn’t cope with bad habit. A win is a win is a win. We don’t need to diminish them if they don’t seem ‘as large as’ others rather… we need to allow ourselves the permission and respect of honoring even the smallest wins (because we can’t actually appreciate the larger ones without them). Win small. Win big. Win. What are you all winning this week?