Lunch- nothing Dinner 6pm- aunts house with extended family - small side of salad with Olive Garden Italian dressing - Piece of lasagna - size of my fist Feeling- Frustrated. There wasn’t a healthy option. Don’t usually eat pasta since I’ve been low carb since January. Rate pasta a 2. I don’t like that I can’t pin point how many calories I ate. Makes me feel out of control. Went for a 4 mile walk with weighted vest once the kids went to bed. I usually only walk 2, but while walking I was having a lot of negative self talk so I kept going until it stopped. Just feeling dumb. Not sure if I should keep posting these. Having a mentally frustrating night.

Whelp. Not a great start to the reverse diet plan. Lunch- none Feeling- I wasn’t hungry. Am I truly not hungry? Or is this the food noise/ mental part of this whole situation. I don’t usually eat lunch. Have I trained myself to not be hungry? How do I change this? Force myself to eat even though my whole life I’ve been told “eat when you are hungry”. Do I not trust my brain and do it anyway? Dinner - 6pm @ in-laws City BBQ Turkey breast and green beans Total for the day 310 calories 54g protein 4g carbs 8g fat Feeling - I LOVE city bbq. It’s taste good and it fits into my food requirements. With this reverse diet- I feel like I am supposed to just jump right in and eat everything. That stresses me out. It’s like I’m re-wiring my brain. How do I even start? “It’s not difficult. It’s new”. And slightly difficult.

I said I wouldn’t fast anymore. Which if driving me nuts today. So here goes: Lunch 12:45 Muscle milk- 160 cals Feeling- Chugged it down. Anytime I have a muscle milk I feel like it’s a force feeding. Like I have to have something but don’t want to. Dinner 5:30pm Chick fila grilled nuggets - 200 cals Feeling- I won’t like. I love me some grilled nugs. Feel like it’s good protein but low calorie. Doesn’t make me feel guilty for eating. Currently doing my 2 mile walk while my oldest is at dance. This hill is gnarly with my vest on. Will have my tea and be done for the night

Breakfast 9:00am vanilla iced latte with oat milk 100 calories Feeling- Thank god for espresso. Best Christmas gift ever. Lunch 2:00pm Chick fila- 12 count grilled nugget 200 calories Feeling- I don’t mind chick fila. I feel okay as long as I get grilled nuggets. Dinner- nothing Feeling- never felt hungry. Was running around all day. The idea of dinner never really popped in my head. Now it’s 10pm and too late to eat. Will have a hot tea.

Lunch 12:45-pm. classroom Muscle milk- 160 calorie Taco flavored chomps- 100 Feeling- I knew I needed to eat since I didn’t yesterday. I was feeling light headed and shakey so I felt like it was necessary. Dinner 6:30pm. LaRosa’s with work friends Small Jojo salad with ranch - 480 calories feeling - Absolutely no desire to eat. Everyone else ordered so I felt like I had to. I mean it’s a fucking salad. Why are you so worried? It is crazy that I feel like today is a crazy high calorie day- 740 calories. Will finish the night with a lemon tea.