I just wanted to share something that might sound small on paper, but it has shifted my perspective in more ways than I expected. Recently, I had a bit of a health scare. I went through a huge series of tests, and while it’s still going to be an uphill road to figure things out, at least now I have answers. Information. Something solid to hold on to. And that gives me the chance to actually take the bull by the horns and sort things out. As an eating disorder survivor, food has always been at the centre of my life, and not in a healthy way. I mean in the loud, relentless, heavy food-noise way. If you know, you know. The constant calculations. The mental bargaining. The way it takes up space in your head, even when you wish it wouldn’t. The cravings, the boredom eating. The emotional binge. All of the messed up stuff basically. And if you ever had the food noise issue, you would know...it never leaves you alone. I’ve always been a huge sport-oriented person. Since I was a kid. Movement was never the issue. But as the weight piled on, I slowly stepped back from myself for years. I eventually went through bariatric surgery to try and tame the beast, and anyone who’s been through it, or knows someone who has, understands how intense and wild that journey is. At the time, I genuinely thought it would be a magical tool. That it would make me skinny and, consequently, happy. Because if I’m honest, ALL I wanted was to be skinny. It did make me skinnier for a while (the weight came back...not all of it, but a good chunk). It also made me incredibly weak. For a good few years, my body just…wasn’t functioning at its best. There were consequences, real ones, loads are still here and giving me huge issues, and if I could turn back time, I would absolutely approach things differently. I would work on myself first, not just my size. I can’t lie, I’ve never been into fitness/health coaches. I always found the whole thing a bit pretentious, if I’m honest. Maybe that was my resistance to accountability talking. Maybe it was my discomfort with extremes. I’ve never liked the demonising of chocolate or the shouting about missing a leg day. Life is nuanced. Food is nuanced. Bodies are nuanced.

It's 6AM. You wake up and open the curtains. In front of you is the beautiful blue waters of the Andaman Sea. You wash down a large cup of water with electrolytes. You go to the kitchen and greet your new friends over a coffee. I'm one of those friends ☺️ You put on your walking shoes and go for a 30-minute walk with the gang. You come back to a spread of eggs, turkey bacon, fruit, protein shakes, and more coffee. You're not sure how to track the food, but good thing I'm there to show you exactly how. You go back to your room for some personal time. 11AM hits, and I'm waiting in the gym to show you how to properly train (finally 😆) We head to the sauna after, and we share our goals and dreams. We do a mobility session together and rest for a few hours. It's 6PM, and dinner is served. Your meal is optimized for your calorie and macro goals + you get a side of bone broth 🤩 We end the night with a short but sweet lesson on how to optimize your sleep. You head to bed, and we do it again tomorrow. So... I actually had the pleasure of taking part in an experience like this last year on the beautiful island of Koh Samui at a luxury called Villa Solana. I became good friends with the honorable guests there, including three Miss Universe Thailand's 😉 (how lucky am I) and one of the top Thai female fitness influencers (@befitwithjess). There's really nothing like a 3-day unplugging getaway where your main focus is yourself... but with an awesome support system to top it off. Raise your hand if you'd want to experience this 🙋🏽✋

This is an EASY one for new members stuck at Level 1! Just drop a GIF if you want 😄

Breakfast: Protein Eggo waffles Protein cinnamon Cheerios Fairlife chocolate shakes Plain nonfat Greek yogurt with Kind vanilla blueberry granola with flax seeds Scrambled eggs Lunch: Chicken salad made with canned chicken breast Egg salad Steamed shrimp Turkey lunchmeat Sometimes I have the Greek yogurt and granola for lunch Dinner: Chicken breast, steak, shrimp, ground turkey 💪🏼💪🏼

I have been rebuilding my strength after an illness and have not had a new PR this year. Yesterday, I hit a new PR and it felt awesome! Getting stronger. Let’s go everyone! Never give up!