I just wanted to share something that might sound small on paper, but it has shifted my perspective in more ways than I expected. Recently, I had a bit of a health scare. I went through a huge series of tests, and while it’s still going to be an uphill road to figure things out, at least now I have answers. Information. Something solid to hold on to. And that gives me the chance to actually take the bull by the horns and sort things out. As an eating disorder survivor, food has always been at the centre of my life, and not in a healthy way. I mean in the loud, relentless, heavy food-noise way. If you know, you know. The constant calculations. The mental bargaining. The way it takes up space in your head, even when you wish it wouldn’t. The cravings, the boredom eating. The emotional binge. All of the messed up stuff basically. And if you ever had the food noise issue, you would know...it never leaves you alone. I’ve always been a huge sport-oriented person. Since I was a kid. Movement was never the issue. But as the weight piled on, I slowly stepped back from myself for years. I eventually went through bariatric surgery to try and tame the beast, and anyone who’s been through it, or knows someone who has, understands how intense and wild that journey is. At the time, I genuinely thought it would be a magical tool. That it would make me skinny and, consequently, happy. Because if I’m honest, ALL I wanted was to be skinny. It did make me skinnier for a while (the weight came back...not all of it, but a good chunk). It also made me incredibly weak. For a good few years, my body just…wasn’t functioning at its best. There were consequences, real ones, loads are still here and giving me huge issues, and if I could turn back time, I would absolutely approach things differently. I would work on myself first, not just my size. I can’t lie, I’ve never been into fitness/health coaches. I always found the whole thing a bit pretentious, if I’m honest. Maybe that was my resistance to accountability talking. Maybe it was my discomfort with extremes. I’ve never liked the demonising of chocolate or the shouting about missing a leg day. Life is nuanced. Food is nuanced. Bodies are nuanced.

Q&A tomorrow! What do you guys want to talk about? Lmk if you’re coming! 🤙❤️

A bunch of random thoughts: Heading to Phuket for a few days. I always choose not to use the walking escalator (or whatever you call it) just so I can get more steps in 😆 Trying to get 5000 steps before boarding 🤙 Big W for Thailand carrying protein shakes and hard boiled eggs at the airport 🙏 Thinking about getting my second coffee before 7:30 AM 🤔 Have a solid day, everybody❤️

Let’s talk about fruit, shall we? I’ve been having a bit of trouble dropping weight recently. I did everything “right”: stuck to my cal def, stayed consistent, but still hit a plateau and wasn’t seeing much movement. Readjusting to UK food after being away for three and a half months probably played a part, but what really made me think was some blood work I had done. Turns out I have pretty significant insulin resistance. Not exactly a shock, I’ve suspected it for years, but doctors in this country are…a whole other conversation for another day, lol. I was actually quite chill about the results, but I wanted a proper medical opinion, so I booked a consultation with a nutritionist. And I can’t lie, that conversation left me a bit perplexed. He went on a whole spiel about fruit and was extremely adamant that I shouldn’t eat fruit during the day, almost at all. And if I really wanted to, I had to limit myself to a maximum of 200g of a single type of fruit. Now, I completely respect medical advice, and I’m not trying to be contrarian for the sake of it, but this genuinely confused me. I’ve always understood fruit to be a valuable source of fibre, vitamins, and nutrients, and something that can actually help manage blood sugar levels, especially compared to straight-up sugary foods. So… am I tripping? @Darren Liu do you have any input on this, or is this obvious to everybody, and I am just being a dummy?

Already stacking some wins: ✅ Snoozed 5am alarm (not the win), got up at 5:30 instead (small win) ✅ Ran a 5km for “speed” ✅ Decorated the house to surprise my girl for her 3rd bday today ✅ I get to see you guys in an hour! See you in a bit!