I don't know the last time I have ever been able to say this about an entire week that I have been in the office, but it was a good, productive week. I actually feel like I tackled a lot on my to do list everyday and accomplished a majority of it. I'm still not sleeping through the night which is frustrating me, but I am sleeping enough. I have tried taking melatonin, which doesn't keep me asleep. I might take benadryl tonight to see if that helps me at all. I just want my brain to shut off from thinking about my former boss and the mountain of problems he left me. I know some of it, I am still processing my own feelings. I have had a lot of good conversations with the VP of my company this week. He and I have been working very hard together to figure out what the former PM was doing. So, that has been extremely helpful and eye opening for me. And I knew the former PM did this, it took me 7 years to figure it out after a colleague at our former company reached out to me about something, this guy had a way of getting into my head and manipulating me against people. He particularly did this with people we worked with but I didn't work closely with. Unfortunately, the VP of the company was one of those people that I am referring to. And the VP recognized this and he knows this happened because I told him that right before he fired the PM. So, it has been a relief to get out from under this man. I'm feeling my energy come back. I don't dread going into the office as much. It's amazing what the shift has been in just a week. I am also going to share that while we haven't formally discussed my role in the department yet. We have discussed that I (and my colleague) are getting raises. The former PM's bonus is going to be split between the 2 of us. And my job title has at least changed to Project Manager/Geologist.

This didn’t feel as rough as last week. I don’t know if I wasn’t pushing as hard or because I am going into this very well rested finally almost caught up on all my sleep debt. I now only owe 50 minutes. Going to have to figure a plan this week so that this doesn’t continuously happen moving forward.

Here is to hoping I can move tomorrow. Caitlynn had ear tube inserted yesterday so I spent that day taking care of her. That meant that I didn't get my workout yesterday. I have today off to I doubled up and did upper and lower body today. I am just hoping that I can move tomorrow. I am so glad that I picked this program though. I needed some weights and Joel in my life. Added the little cutie trying on her snow suit.

I guess I expected nothing less from him LOL. Phase 1 complete.

OOOOKAYYYY THEN SHAUN T. That was a workout. 🥴🥵😆 Bring on phase 2!