Also my (retired) Work Mom died suddenly and I didn’t Realized till I saw this category opened how very pissed off I am about it.

I am sick of excusing people for disappointing me. Sick of out of balance relationships. AAARRRRGGGHHHHH (that was the scream) touching it?

So friends another year has come. Another year to scream. NO, I’m not ready yet! This can’t happen yet! We had so many plans! Three years ago today my husband passed on our 23rd wedding anniversary. I was with him in the hospital as I watched him slowly go with my step-daughter. It was devastating as you can imagine. He was a fighter through illness that slapped him in the face. He was the greatest husband, father (to his and mine), pawpaw and great pawpaw, son and overall human. We were blessed were blessed to call him ours. He was blessed because we gave him that same strong love in return. He reminds us that he is always around by leaving bird droppings on our cars. Believe me, we have ALL noticed the uptick in this. We all look to the Heavens and say, ‘damn it Vaughn’, then we laugh. It’s typical of his sense of humor. So I’m yelling, screaming, shouting into the void - tell your family and friends you love them. Be there for them. Hug them. Laugh or cry with them. Sit with them. Just do it, you’ll need those memories to sustain you in difficult times. Love you all my friends!!

Hey team, As a supportive and collective community, I want to properly place entries into their respective categories. With that being said, I’ve noticed several entries lately that are not looking for help, not expressing what they need, and ultimately coming across as more of a journal entry than an actual “hi, I’m looking for support - here’s what I’m needing” and falling into a different category all together. Because sometimes we aren’t looking for advice or guidance or anything really in particular to address, but rather a safe place to share/express/let go of our internal world without judgement, criticism, or comment from anyone else. Enter: “Scream Into The Void” How this will work: - You share your mind/thoughts/feelings into the “Scream Into The Void” category tab - Good stuff, exhausting stuff, sad stuff, uncertain stuff - let it out - If someone posts in there - YOU DO NOT COMMENT ON IT *how is it a void if the void talks back?* - If you read the entire post, you can “like” the post but that is it - Furthermore, you do NOT DM someone after they post and ask them if they are okay, if they want to talk, etc. or post/comment about this elsewhere online *if I know this is happening, I will be very strict in my policy on removing access - Respect others boundaries - if they are posting in this category, then we know as a group how to support (by simply doing nothing) Undestood? Excellent. If you ARE looking for support, advice, validation, or encouragement - then you need to post about what’s going on or what you’re struggling with and what you’re looking for in terms of feedback (it’s okay if you don’t know, but please specify that). Help yourself by guiding others to help you. Again, it’s okay if you don’t know what you need or what that looks like, but I’m sure we all know the big difference between asking for help and screaming into the void. As always, we will be respectful, considerate, and supportive. Thanks for your understanding.

I feel like I wake up every day and fake it til I make it. You know force the smile, always say I’m good when some one ask. Going thru the motions of life but not really living.