Breakfast 9:00am vanilla iced latte with oat milk 100 calories Feeling- Thank god for espresso. Best Christmas gift ever. Lunch 2:00pm Chick fila- 12 count grilled nugget 200 calories Feeling- I don’t mind chick fila. I feel okay as long as I get grilled nuggets. Dinner- nothing Feeling- never felt hungry. Was running around all day. The idea of dinner never really popped in my head. Now it’s 10pm and too late to eat. Will have a hot tea.

Lunch 12:45-pm. classroom Muscle milk- 160 calorie Taco flavored chomps- 100 Feeling- I knew I needed to eat since I didn’t yesterday. I was feeling light headed and shakey so I felt like it was necessary. Dinner 6:30pm. LaRosa’s with work friends Small Jojo salad with ranch - 480 calories feeling - Absolutely no desire to eat. Everyone else ordered so I felt like I had to. I mean it’s a fucking salad. Why are you so worried? It is crazy that I feel like today is a crazy high calorie day- 740 calories. Will finish the night with a lemon tea.

One thing I did for self-care today was go for a walk which definitely made me feel refreshed and in a good mindset .Two things I learned from watching the Mindset Mobility video is that growth happens when you allow yourself to learn from both good and bad experiences, and Flexibility in thinking can reduce stress in difficult situations.

So for the past month and a half I've been in this relationship he's the same as me just a few months younger and like everything's been going okay I have noticed anything like too crazy just minor typical teenage like conversations we made plans to go out tomorrow from 12:00 to 3:00 like 2 weeks ago for tomorrow I said originally like 12:00 to 6:00 or whatever and he was like I don't feel comfortable going out that long so I said okay I respect your boundaries like if you're not comfortable doing that. Two days later he hits me up with a whole bunch of horrible things he had to say about me . The things that he said to me broke my heart I'm not going to sit here and write everything he said out to me because it hurt and I'm going to attach a photo of part of our conversation and say exactly how it ended because I don't know what I did wrong and I don't know if it's me but he's making me feel like that I ruined our whole relationship. What really hurt is that I was vulnerable enough to tell him about me and all of my trauma and we bonded over a lot of trauma we share a lot of trauma and he just threw it in my face like haha you're basically living a horrible life.