No Time Like The Present to be Present. · Human Intelligence by Soma+IQ

No Time Like The Present to be Present.

Hello everyone!

Today's session was a rollercoaster for me.

During the session itself, I think I actually dozed off for a short time- I went from being focused on the hold at the top breaths and the 3rd cycle of breaths to suddenly hearing Adam focusing on calming breaths and anchoring in gratitude.

This was profound timelapse for me- the intention I set was requesting acceptance and rest. I was seeking answers to questions I didn't know fully recognize or know how to ask.

Spoiler: I received all of the above today.

Story Time:

Earlier this year, I created an LLC in hopes to come up with a business plan that might help me better practice my private home healthcare. I went in with a friend who seems to be more focused on the "get rich quick" methods, so he was obsessing over finding some way to get large amounts of business funding for whatever spur of the moment ideas he came up with. It didnt feel right, but I went along with his energy because I wanted so badly to have my own income and not be a slave to the grind anymore.

Long story short, he got us tangled up with a scammy funding model and it was very stressful for a few months, during the same time I was caring and supporting my Gram in her ICU stays before her passing. I was making decisions in very reactionary and heightened emotional states, and it was definitely not working out the best. Turned out my friend really was more of an attachment than a partner. He has zero credit and a criminal history, so it was not possible for him to get funding on his own. I had credit scores over 800 thanks to Gram's wisdom and lifelong teaching of financial responsibility. During the process he enrolled us in, it required me to pay up front nearly $8K on a Klarna credit account- mind you, neither him nor I had any income at this time so this was a terrible idea- and eventually I ended up trusting my guts and backing out of the entire ordeal after some very unfriendly exchanges and threats made towards me by the funding company's "support" team.

I put everything on hold and focused entirely on my grandmother and children for the next several months while I processed the close call of nearly destroying my 20yrs of credit repair efforts.

Fast forward to the last two months.

Gram passed July 31st. My entire life inverted. I was with her every single day of my life- without fail- and now she's gone. I have two little ones (4yr & 2yr) who are absolutely dysregulated and in meltdown mode after witnessing her pass at home and all of the family fighting that began immediately after she took her last breath. (This is partly why the "book ends" comment strikes me so deeply).

I am struggling to process my extreme grief while juggling my children, my stoic and ptsd "robot" husband (he's law enforcement and has been raised to live more numb than most by extensive abuse in childhood), the aggressive emotional cannibalism that immediately erupted between my mother and aunt and the rest of the family- while trying to navigate being left in charge of all her End of Life/Death responsibilities.

Frustrating and overwhelming beyond imagination, I promise. You're absolutely correct.

I navigated those final months, weeks, hours with her- watching her suffer, watching her be afraid of what comes next. I watched the person I loved most for longest, trusted the deepest, and never ever imagined living without, struggle with every facet of her life and mortality.

This was something I face with most of my clients, this is normalcy for me- this is nothing new..... But this time it was personal. It was so painful. i was terrified. She couldnt even speak to reassure me that I Was making the right choices on her behalf.

I was forced to trust that I was doing what was right based solely on my heart's guidance and what I knew she would tell me if I asked her what to do.

I always promised her I would go back to school.

I always promised her that I would not waste my gift for being a healer and the comfort I bring people who are suffering or in great distress.

and here I am.

The day before this summit opened and began, I was shown a quick video with Nadeem and the Soma+IQ profile on Facebook. This is exceptionally relevant because I no longer use social media, so for me to be scrolling at that exact moment to come across that video- to lead me right here to this moment today- is mindblowing.

I had heard about somatic workouts and I already regularly practice mindful breathing, meditation, my own version of reiki, and other things of that nature. I am very mindful of my body, and hypersensitive to the emotions and energy around me. I told myself in that moment that there is "no time like the present, it's free, there's nothing to lose" and I signed up.

A short while later, Alejandro reached out to me and we chatted briefly about what my goals were and what drew me into the idea of the summit. I explained some of my history, that I have taught myself to serve others before myself, and that I would really like to resolve some of the pent up feelings I have buried in the back of my throat where the tears live. I told him I would like to learn new strategies and tools to help my clients and their families when working in those final moments with them as their spiritual transition guide and "Death Doula" as I joked about when I established my LLC. We scheduled a follow up call for Saturday at 11am to explore how it went for me and if I might be interested in continuing the pursuit of training to become a guide and companion in the Soma+IQ family and team....

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Guys. I reacted- I could not miss the time sensitive opportunity.

I just took advantage of the full package deal~ I just ran out on a limb and JUMPED. No hesitation. I knew instantly when Nadeem was describing the "special gift" at the end of today's session that it was the entire reason I was guided to this place and time.

I happened to have enough money in the bank from the small amount i received from Gram's life insurance. I was going to invest it with her broker for the kids, but instead I am going to use her final financial gift to help me build the foundation to continue my work and return to school as I promised her I would. I know that's what she would want me to do. (It's a bonus that it's a tax write-off for Lumen Viae too ^_~ )

The entire Universe just proved to me in a single moment that it is now, and has always been, all in to guide me exactly where I needed to be, when i needed to be there, to bring me here to this moment.

I am humbled and awed by the absolutely flawless path provided to me to reach the next step into my new life.

I cannot wait to see you all tomorrow. I cannot wait to share this and how excited I am.

I have so many questions, so many things I want to do today, so many people i want to call and tell about this life epiphany.....

So right now, I'm just going to pause, shed these tears of absolute jubilation and overwhelming gratitude for the power of the Universe always working in my best interest, and I'm going to embrace the rest of my night as the first hours of the rest of my new life~ Journeying with Soma+IQ to become a provider and refuge for others the way Adam and Nadeem have been for us these last two days.

I couldnt help but jump for all the bonus gifts, the private sessions with Jaggers, the partner pass, the after training/certification follow through, guidance for how to market online, etc (@Soma+IQ TEAM : Where can we find our confirmations for these, btw? I paid in full via paypal, but the paypal charged less than what was in my cart and I want to make sure I'm not missing anything...)

All of it sounds like exactly what I need to make the most of my future for me and my family. I look forward to receiving a breakdown with all the information I need to continue my journey here with you all. Who knows, maybe one day it will be me in Adam and Nadeems' seats helping guide a webinar for you and your friends or family one day!

Radiating Love and Light for all those who read this and feel any part of this with me. <3 Thank you for being here with me today. Thank you for sharing this moment of extreme jubilation with me. Thank you for being a participant in the moment my entire life snapped into alignment, the lightbulb went on, and the rest of my life goal for this year finally made sense.

Your Humbled Starseed,

Ashlynn

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