Good morning gents it's a cold 9 degree Fahrenheit morning out. On a railway job today . Let the rig warm up for 45 minutes this morning before I set out for the job site Black work shirt Black Carhartt vest Black and white stripped ariat cap (Yes I have my heavy fr Carhartt gear with me as well) Rock n roll jeans Ariat preaching boots Ride cologne

I got called off work last night . So we drove to my parents for a late breakfast and now on way to wife’s doctors appt and then to my men’s bible study. Also the gentleman that teaches my bible study and is a spiritual father figure for me decided to take up the hobby on doing some cobbler work and is learning how to replace souls on shoes and boots. So I’m taking him my triangle point double h cowboy boots to see if he can put new heels on them. Ive had these boots since highschool and have about a ton of miles on them and I’ve worn the back heels off them Anyways today im wearing My environmental technician shirt My light brown ariat cap My dark blue rock n roll jeans And my brown Chelsea boots on Along with my forest green bomber jacket on P.s. yes I do have an environmental degree in parks/recreation/wildlife Covers everything from parks/construction/surveying/water and air monitoring management , boating/kayaking/canoing, forest fire fighting, forestry and habitat management , fisheries management , wetland management, law enforcement and wildlife/fisheries law, constitutional class etc.

Gentlemen, pardon me if this is not the right platform. Based on all your experience and coming from different walks of life, I need some advise. It has been a very tough year, my wife was diagnosed with cancer, went through surgery and chemo, now a waiting game to March until the next scan. Work has become toxic and just in general, I lost my purpose, no longer interested in the things I used to love, small chores feels like climbing Mount Everest. I have become withdrawn, and prefer silence and solitude, of course this has a negative affect on my marriage, friendships and have become depressed. Feels like just another day, dragging myself out of bed, giving myself a pep talk just to face the day. Have some meds, but not working, seeing someone just causes more negative questions How do I shake this off and be who I really am? Life is not that bad, but for some reason this dark cloud is smothering me. If this topic is not allowed on this platform, I apologize, and admin may remove it. Any suggestions or input will appreciated.