I made a perfume for a girl I loved (a concept at least)

This is gonna sound so stupid. But i’ve fallen in love with this subject so much that I’ve started teaching myself how to make perfumes now.

I’ve spent a lot of hours studying chemistry, aromachemicals, even got a book on perfuming a few months ago. Been looking into proper suppliers and got a good supply of high end ingredients and musks. I’m nowhere NEAR the six year educated professionals like our brother who used to be here, Mike Payne. But i feel like im grasping it well.

Now that being said, I really wanted to announce this sooner because of how proud I am to have started getting into this hobby. Maybe it’s just a fixation that I get, as a brother on the spectrum a little bit lol. I personally think that my fixation might be not intense as it is now, but i’ve always loved classy things and fragrance, and so I think this will stick for a lifetime.

But now I’m reaching a point where collecting is awesome, but not enough. I want to start making them. And so as a hobby, when I can find the time, I’ve began this journey. I’m nowhere NEAR to the point where I can comfortably say that i’m good at this, nor will i let my stuff see the light of DAY for a little bit.

But hey, no better place to announce this than here.

So now getting into the subject of the post. The girl i made this for.

First question is, why would I do this? Because i was in love once. It wasn’t a perfect relationship, it was actually incredibly painful for me, and I had to end it because it was getting too much, holding onto this, not knowing where I stood.

But i loved her, deeply. We were just kids in highschool when we first met. Danced to a song by Ed Sheeran. Kept dancing even after the song ended.

And I fell in love with her that night. And never stopped.

But unfortunately, it didn’t end. I was tired of not knowing where I belonged in her life. It’s not that she was never there for me, but her inconsistency is what broke my heart. It was a constant cycle of intensity, push, pull, then nothing. And then restarting. And honestly, I felt like i was kept close enough to be there and decently present, but never close enough to really BE there. And as someone in love for years… that hurt me a lot!

Needless to say, when I fall in love, it’s slow and intense, but once i’m in love, i’m deeply in love, and will never look at someone else. Even when moving on, they still have a place in my heart that can never be replaced. And even with her, as bittersweet as it was, I will never forget her or the time we had. And i still miss her. Deeply.

The story behind this fragrance is, well, it was a late night call with her years ago. We talked about the things we loved smell wise. And she told me some of her favorites.

I wrote them down in an old notebook. I’d always wanted to make perfumes even when i was younger, but never knew how to get there, so it was a book full of unmet ideas.

Years later, I found it lying under my bed and broke it out. I found that old recipe and realized how beautiful it was. Peach. Ginger. I added in a note of hibiscus, because she loved florals, and I knew how much of a beach and ocean girl she was.

And with me man, i’m an artist. Everything I make has sentimental connection. I write songs. Poetry. Love letters. Stories. Paintings. Music. All of it, and it’s how i deal and cope with deep emotions, one of which being that deep love and sadness I felt with her. It truly was one of my most emotional connections.

So I got to work. With new knowledge, I made tweaks to it. Refined it.

And I gave it a name. The idea behind this fantasy fragrance line, is that it’s based on different months of the year.

I couldn’t remember the exact date of her birth, but I remembered the month she was born in. And her birthstone.

And so, Ruby was born. I’m still in the process of tweaking this fully. Refinements need to be made, but I’m proud to share this with you guys. Don’t steal my idea!!

Simple fragrance. Linear in development. A contrast to the depth we had.

Ginger, peach, hibiscus, white musk, and sandalwood.

I’m asking myself now. Do I want to start a perfume maison lol?

Am I willing to put in the years of work, experience, and sweat to making a name for myself out in this enormous, saturated industry? Will passion mean anything?

I’m not sure. But keep this as a milestone, brothers. I’ve found another passion, and honestly one that’s helped me cope deeply with loss and grief.

Anyways, random rant over. Love you guys.

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I made a perfume for a girl I loved (a concept at least)