This is who I am.... Messy and all....

Hello my name is Kat and I am 43 A true Gemini that is powered by chaos, curiosity, and approximately 47 open tabs in my brain (and my computer) at all times.

My family lives in the Tampa Florida, in the United States. I am a wife of 20 years (still not sure how he’s kept up/puts up, with me this long). Our son (18) is AuDHD with OCD, anxiety, and depression, aka complex, resilient, and navigating life on expert mode. My daughter (15) has ADHD and enough personality to run a small country. They are my heart, my reality check, and my greatest adventure.

I’m also ADHD (officially on paper) but have been told by doctors they believe I am more AuDHD (unofficially on paper but LOUDLY confirmed in my own brain). Which means I’m high-energy, deeply feeling (even though i do not show my feelings all the time), wildly curious, very sarcastic with a strange sense of humor … and occasionally miss the vibe of a room like it’s a hidden side quest. I’ll catch it........just not always in real time.

I love to travel with a passion. We just got back from Scotland (2 weeks ago). It was AMAZING! I have also been to 22 states, Japan, Iceland, Mexico, and Canada. If there’s a trip to plan, I’m already mentally packed.

I live in a constant state of “doing all the things.” I love reading (or listening because I drive an hour to and from work daily), journaling, penpaling, and learning anything that sparks my interest. I’m also a walking contradiction........equal parts dorky bookworm and adrenaline junkie (well maybe not a junkie but I sure do love an adventure). Skydiving, bungee swinging, rock climbing, to jet sking kayaking, paintball, airsoft, and a day at the range There are some days though, i just need to do NOTHING.....

I am a director of a preschool with a huge soft spot/ drawn to the “too much,” “too loud,” or “hard” children.

At home, we have a full-on zoo: a husky, pug-zu, two cats, and two ferrets. It’s loud and chaotic but somehow its exactly right for us.

Family time is everything........ even when it’s complicated. Especially when it’s complicated.

There are times when I am confident in myself and days where my esteem is in the dumps. I am sarcastic and make jokes (granted bad ones), sometimes even at bad times (I truly dont mean to). I’m hard on myself and always striving to be better. I carry guilt I don’t always understand.

With all that said, I am not a follower.... I will not change who I am just because someone doesnt like who I am, the way I am or the way I act...

Underneath all of that, I genuinely love life..... the messy, beautiful, unpredictable kind.

Now this is who I am........ Mess and all.....

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