Not sure if this is where I should add this.... but truly I am sitting with it and thinking 🤔 Just got my ADHD Snapshot and I need to sit with this for a minute (or 20.......). I've spent my whole life accomplishing things people told me I never would, and I still couldn't name a single moment I was proud of myself. This report showed me I've been running a scoring system that was rigged against me since I was 8 years old. No wonder nothing ever felt like enough.

I did my quick adhd snapshot yesterday, feeling rather sceptical about it, but it was remarkably kind and empathetic. One thing that was a bit of a revelation. I have this strange dysfunctional empathy. I feel sorry for struggling animals and stop to talk to random dogs and cats that I meet. There was a magnificent husky with an elderly and lame black Labrador that I met one day, and I said “what a beautiful dog!” and stroked the lab, because I thought he probably heard people praising the husky all the time and could do with some validation. I feed the birds, the squirrels and the visiting fox in our garden and adopted a scruffy, smelly old dog, who was about to be put down by his owner, because she couldn’t care for him any more. I love him. I even feel sorry for tree saplings who are in danger of being weeded out of the flower borders, so I dig them up and put them somewhere safe, where they can hopefully live their best life. It probably doesn’t take a genius to suppose that I’m pouring the empathy into stray animals that I can’t give myself, but that’s what the AI suggested and it felt very insightful. Whether it indicates ADHD is another question that I haven’t resolved yet.

I have been meaning to get things I no longer want on a selling site and try to earn a bit of extra cash. You know how it goes, the thought is there but that’s as far as it goes. Well I have got things out of the wardrobe and have washed it all and put it on hangers and steamed it. I even photographed it. Now I have to put it online…. Maybe tomorrow!

In which neurodivergent diagnosis did you recognise yourself? Or in which combination? And what was it in there, that really hit home for you? ❤️🙏