This is what I want to say · ADHD Harmony™

This is what I want to say

First, a genuine deep THANK YOU for providing the snapshot.

I see how even on a "good" day, it felt almost hopeless. Because my excitement and HAPPINESS was actually a THREAT to my "family."

I see how I shrank myself, contorted myself, did ANYTHING to JUST FIT IN SOMEWHERE!!! TO BELONG SOMEWHERE!!

I was almost TOO capable for some people.. but not in an arrogant way. Then, if *I* actually needed help or support, I was a "problem"

I always liked it to someone with say chronic back pain. Horrible, debilitating back pain. And they're told the "traditional" methods, and lets say they even DO the "traditional" ways, and IT DOESN'T WORK FOR THEM!

they even maybe get the "required" surgery. and it STILL doesn't WORK for THEM.

NOW WHAT??

THAT is how I feel about my brain and nervous system. I DON'T HAVE a "support system" as a single mom. I deal with narcissistic abuse, massive trauma etc etc. AND AT THE SAME TIME, I will NOT succumb to it..

but..NOW WHAT??! haha

well, this group is an example of "now what".

Anyway, I'm going to go do my qi gong now. It is part of my new morning routine. And reminding myself I am building my own foundation. Brick by brick. And I maybe don't know WHAT the heck is going to happen. But I DO know what doesn't work. and it is being consumed by intrusive thoughts.

I AM SO GRATEFUL to be here! THANK YOU!!

DON'T GIVE UP!!!

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