Hi guys!
I've started my "productivity zone" experiment.
The "target" for today is cleaning out the fridge, seeing what is there.
I'm currently on my second break. The way I'm doing it is from 9 am to noon, I am doing 20 minutes ON and 20 minutes OFF.
I have music playing. And I MAKE myself SIT during the breaks.
This is a completely different way of thinking than I've ever had.
The goal isn't even to "finish the fridge". It is merely to spend 20 minutes on it (and then 20 minutes off) from 9 am to noon.
Why? Because I'm realizing and experiencing more and more that "taking a day off" just doesn't work for me. It just doesn't.
However, I'm ALSO trying for the first time to honor my body's needs.
I've also decided as of today that if my brain wakes up naturally at 5 am or when the birds chirp, to go ahead and get up then.
Otherwise I actually end up MORE groggy.
And since I'm by myself I literally HAVE to figure out all of the executive functioning etc every day. There is no one to make sure I take vitamins drink water etc.
On top of it, I have major life decisions to make etc.
But what I've realized is that "taking a day off" and laying down all day (while nothing wrong with it!) Actually ends up creating MORE anxiety for me.
But! If I'm able to tell myself "hey, for those 3 hours, I worked on stuff", it will help me with everything else if that makes sense.
So all of that to say that this is a completely different approach for me. But it NEEDS to be this way, at least for now.
I'm going to bed much earlier, unless I have a specific appointment with someone else to do something actually fun (since this IS supposed to be my "break" after all 😅). But I'm no longer allowing myself to stay up watching TV, being on my phone etc.
And by assigning a specific time frame, it gears my brain up while ALSO not being a threat that I have to be "productive" for 14+ hours 😅
The hope is that by designating this time as "productivity zone", my brain will start thinking of things I can DO during that time.
I'm not even worrying about "getting it done". It is simply so I can have a feeling of self-respect at the end of the day that I made PROGRESS in SOMETHING.
Because that is something I personally need. To feel like I'm making SOME sort of progress.
Ok just wanted to share! If you're feeling completely STUCK, I understand! But this is helping me get UNstuck!
Love you guys! 🥰