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Permission to tweak 😅

So.. I've realized I need to tweak the order of my carefully constructed morning routine.

Now I don't know if this is adhd or autism or even just cptsd but I was struggling to give myself permission to tweak

The big reason is because I know the urge from my brain can be "this is boring. Let's change it up!" But in this case, it isn't that it is boring. It is actually triggering for me.

I WAS getting "morning sun"- to the extent I could- it has been gray here some days. But I also wasn't getting outside until 9 am and that was AFTER doing a bunch of steps including cooking breakfast.. in an environment that feels like CONSTANT reminders of what isn't done or messes daughter left when she left for school etc etc.

My point is, starting tomorrow, I'm tweaking the order of my routine. I'm going to shoot to be UP by 7 am (since her alarm goes off at 5:30 so I already am woken up early), and instead of completing a bunch of steps, I'm going to go downstairs, put on a hat, drink water, make a coffee and add two scoops protein powder, and be OUT of the house for a walk by 7:30 am.

Now.. that might sound straightforward... but, before my body exploded 😅, I was taking morning walks but would literally go as far as I could, and then had to walk back of course (literally up hill 😅) and basically completely wear myself out.

So... that's not the answer haha. But! What i can do is set timer for 5 minutes and walk 5 minutes "out". Then when timer goes off, walk back. So basically a 10 minute walk.

This has absolutely been a downfall of my brain in the past is overdoing things without realizing it🤯. So I'm posting this so I DON'T do that.

I'm telling myself if I feel like I need to cry on walk i can (because that is part of why I'm hesitating to take a walk), but I'm going to literally keep moving through it walking. PMDD here and I'm trying my best to both RESPECT it but also not punish myself by staying literally inside suffering if that makes sense.

I'm sharing this because I know first hand the despair and hopeless feeling that comes up when things aren't working.

And I want to remind you, you are WORTH continuing to experiment and find things that work for YOUR brain 🥰

Ultimately, I want to approach this like the fact that I'm left handed. I'm left handed. Doesn't make me inferior to others. But certain things, if I want to be comfortable, I need to slightly adjust.

Ok. Love you guys! Don't give up! If you ever need brainstorming for ideas to accomplish certain things, let me know! That's one of my passions! I do it for my daughter literally ALL the time. And now I'm starting to do it for myself! And if I can help someone else with my passion I want to!

Case in point: tonight WILL be night 6 of new bedtime regime for me. I am going to fly the plane to dreamland 😁

Remember: #whateverworks!

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