Section 2 of the Operating Manual just explained my evenings to me. The gaming, the late-night snacks, the runway of small comforts - it turns out that's not weakness, it's my nervous system grabbing the fastest lever it can find. And the 20 minutes of calm inducing meditation I almost dismissed? That was proof my system already knows the way out. I am accepting all this with an open mind and appreciating the insights.
Rock on.