Kinda blah today · ADHD Harmony™

Kinda blah today

Today I am finding it very hard to get motivated after receiving some tough news yesterday.... For the past 8 yrs I have been running on/in Caregive mode 1st my mom, then my best friend ,then my daddy, then my other friend,then my boyfriend whom I walked all to the end of life plus being an executor of the estate which was not a normal estate a lot of crap involved in this one. I've been fighting solar loan companies or reverse mortgage companies, billing, rebuilding or re doing my parents old house, it's been a nightmare!!! Little to no help from anybody else in my family! They were living their wonderful lives with their hands out You know how that goes the end of life! Everybody in my family all ended up having their houses to go to and homes to be in and because I was the caregiver I was at the home when my dad passed l! I had to sell the house to satisfy a reverse mortgage.! Once the house sold I had nowhere to go and I ended up having to move into a trailer which was then put on my son's property that he rents; well the property owner came in the other day and I guess I was making some demands about clean up or whatever and between the storms that we've been having between as sick as I've been because my son put me in a trailer that had black mold in it and didn't check it before he put me in there I've been super sick on top of having lupus and RA and fibromyalgia osteoporosis osteoarthritis poly arthritis you name it and I'm just exhausted! Add in my OCD and ADHD and all the other D's in between lol plus 2 torn rotator cuffs and a torn bicep muscule haven't been able to do much heavy stuff! And I only have until the 10th to get everything done involving my living situation but today I just just don't have it.... I have also been caring for my sister since March 13th she fell and broke her shoulder and dislocated her knee and she's a bigger girl than I am. I'm about 149 lb and she's about 315 lb and I literally have been doing everything in her house to include helping lift her , taking care of her kids her grandbaby, babysitting and cooking, doing laundry You name it you know all the while doing executorship duties still! The estate still is not closed due to issues with the reverse mortgage company . I have until May 10th to get everything around the area and the trailer which wouldn't be bad if it didn't entail part of the estate being involved! And that's not even the worst of it even if I do get it done there's no telling if I'm even going to still have a place to live....... I'm just ugh

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