I Have Messed-Up My Own Children

So just chilling around my house, cleaning a little bit of this and a little bit of that.

My son (18 years old, AuADHD, going through ALOT of his own stuff right now. He is struggling with the fact that he is graduating this year, in just a little over a month, doesn't know what to do with his life and he is freaking out), came to sit by me with his lunch. I asked him what was wrong (because, you know, moms know) and he said "I really just dont want to talk about it". We are normally able to speak with each other pretty well. Of course my first response was "why, you know you can always talk to me". His response hit hard... He said "well I don't know if you really even care because you talk to me but then after you go back to being happy and making jokes and trying to make light of any situation".... I think my heart broke a little. I didn't tell anyone that I joined this group, not that im hiding it or anything but its just something for me (everyone thinks Im completely fine) to get my feelings out, and then I pull up my big girl panties and continue with life.....

Well, I grabbed my phone and showed my son all the "snapshot". Maybe not a great idea but whatever... He looked at me and said "mom, why have you never talked about this before"?

Ummmmmmm, I'm your mom and need to have it together at all times..... Fake it until you make it, right?

Just getting my feelings out....... my rant is over.

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