For the first time, I feel like myself

Tonight, tonight I realized I wasn't lazy, impulsive, distracted, or unfocused as they say. Someone called me a smart madman, someone else said I was absent-minded, and someone else said I was possessed by a jinn. But they didn't know the truth. I just felt different from them until I learned I had this disorder. Finally, all the heavy burdens fell away: self-flagellation, exhaustion, self-hatred, self-blame, self-contempt, and escapism into addiction. This was my life, but thank God, today I've changed 180 degrees, just because I knew what was happening inside my brain. I'm so grateful to be here, to be with you. Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. All my love and gratitude to you, after God.

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