March 4th, I came into ADHD with a BANG. I was on it so much - responding and sharing - and loving it. I could do it all day but then I realized, I was hyperfocusing on the app. I guess you can hyperfocus on a good thing. I had to step back and clean my laundry room and kitchen which was a big win - and I had to do laundry and all those non-dopamine tasks. I also had to help my son with his homework - and during that time I spilled my tall coffee mug and it landed on my laptop. It died. I didn't have my laptop for few days and even missed the first session because of it, but I pulled out my 2013 macbook pro dinosaure (still on High Sierra), and I'm back. Yeah, it's slow (I'll update it to Mojave soon), but it works (sort of). I'm sorry I was off the grid. I’m ready to do some WINS now. I missed talking to you all.

I spent hours on my commitment letter last night I’ve summarised some insights in case they are useful for others to hear: I described being "genuinely concerned for the health and safety" of our hamster while putting off upgrading his enclosure for weeks. There was always a "but first I need to..." in the way. It only got done because a leaking pipe forced me to email the landlord, which led to asking for the pet permission I was hanging on for before the upgrade. He has a palace now. Then the synthesis pointed out: I'm doing the exact same thing with my own body. Genuinely concerned about my health. Know the enclosure needs upgrading. Keep saying "but first..." I *am* the hamster. My two Big Rocks both came from the same place: everything I want to build, every system, every improvement, every bit of patience I need for my kids, runs on a body and brain that have enough fuel. And right now I'm running on empty. Big Rock #1: Get outside and move my body every day. Not a fitness programme. Not a transformation. Just go outside and move. I hate exercise. But my body deserves the same urgent concern I had for the hamster. It told me the hill I dread will become smaller as my body becomes stronger. Big Rock #2: Protect my sleep. Screens down, tomorrow set up. My future self is built in the evening. And right now my evenings are where everything unravels. These two are one system. Move by day. Rest by night. Wake with enough. Repeat. It also pointed out that I've been using shame as fuel my whole life. Shame gets you moving, but it leaves you more depleted than before you started. The commitment letter helped me see that my pattern of "starting strong and fading" isn't about lacking willpower. It's physics. You can't run complex executive function on broken sleep and no movement. My comeback protocol is simple: never miss two days in a row. And on my worst days, my minimum is one lap of the stairs, sit in the meditation spot, rip off and eat a piece of lettuce leaf and drink a tall glass of water. That counts.

Day 1 of Week 1 and I am already an emotional wreck again, but as it was last time, in the best way possible. What I am about to share is deeply personal in my eyes, but I am going to share it anyway because I want to keep myself accountable and document my transformation. But most importantly, I want to show everyone that change is possible and there truly is a way out, even if you don't see or feel it right now. I want to motivate everyone to keep going, because YOU are worth it. 🩷 Disclaimer: These statements were created with the help of the amazing and life-changing Harmony AI. These statements are only part of the full report I received for Week 1 reflections. There is so much more insight that was provided in addition to what I am sharing below. MY COMMITMENT LETTER Week 1 — ADHD Harmony 6-Week Program Suliet I am here because my life is changing — and for the first time in over a decade, I actually believe that. I am done being lost at sea with no help in sight. I am done putting myself last and then feeling guilty the one time I try to put myself first. I am done waking up every morning already dreading the day — dreading cooking, dreading homeschool, dreading how needy everyone around me is — and then wondering why I have nothing left for myself when the sun goes down. I am done starting things with fire and vision and then going silent the moment those things require me to be seen. I didn't have the money for this program. I said I would find a way, and I found a way. I won $200 off. I negotiated a payment plan. My husband decided to support me. What I said would happen, happened — with ease, as if it were meant for me. Because it was. A lot of things weren't working out for me. But this worked out. And I am not letting it go. __ THE TRUTH I ALREADY KNEW The movie audience is screaming three things at me: "Go for it. Be yourself. You are not alone." Here's what I need to hear — directly, without softening it: I was not lost because something was wrong with me. I was lost because the people who reflected me back to myself were taken from me, or I was pressured to let them go. Without those mirrors — without friends who knew me deeply, who gave me feedback, who said "keep going" — I stopped trusting my own voice. Every time I got close to something real, I had no one to catch me if it didn't land. So I stopped throwing.

I'm done looking capable on the outside while quietly drowning on the inside. I'm done walking through my own front door and feeling defeated instead of supported. I'm done paying a mortgage on a house someone else should be living in — while my own home sits half-renovated, chaotic, and unfinished. I'm here because three and a half years ago, I lost my corporate role, and with it, I lost the structure, the income, the identity, and the momentum that made me feel like me. And since then — through burnout, redundancy, menopause, and an ADHD diagnosis — I've been trying to rebuild from the inside out while pretending I already had it together. I'm done pretending. I'm here because I know exactly what I need to do. I've always known. The gap was never knowledge — it was follow-through. And I'm done letting avoidance, shame, and overwhelm steal my future one unopened email at a time. These six weeks are not "one day." These six weeks are now. Let's kick in some of that Hyperfocus, and keep the long term goal - right, front and centre of my Vision.

“The AI helped me see that my problem isn’t motivation or discipline—it’s that I’ve structured my life where I’m responsible for everything in my house, so I never have time or energy left for my own work. I know exactly what I want to do, but I keep pushing it to the end of the day when I’m exhausted. It also pointed out that I avoid hard things like finances and tough conversations, even though I know I need to face them. So the real issue isn’t that I don’t know what to do—it’s that I’m not protecting my time, not speaking up, and I’m stuck in patterns that keep me taking care of everything except my own priorities.”