@Lee Eddy hey! I'll share my experience on accessing your buried selves. I'm not entirely sure if this is what you're referring to, but perhaps it can be of some assistance. For about three months, I struggled to find anything other than sadness in these meditations. There were a few things I experimented with that got me through to the next phase. One thing that helped was putting in a lot of reps. I increased my efforts and tried the meditation 2-3 times a day. Doing this can get you 60-90 attempts at a connection in just one month. The connection to my inner child became quicker and stronger Another thing I tried was calling out for a specific feeling. I had a connection with my inner child and could visualize him regularly. He was usually wearing awhite hooded sweatshirt and he was hiding his hands and face. In my mind and not out loud, I would say something to him like, "You can be mad at her. She should never have done this to you." Doing these things allowed me to access an incredible amount of anger. Over time the anger was released and I don't encounter it too much anymore. Not in my meditations or my personal life.

I like the scene where he calmly says "I don't like my job.. I don't think I'm going to go in anymore."

@Josh Derryberry we should talk about "the booze" sometime! It was a major struggle for me.

@Andy Berrett glad you're here! It doesn't sound like the easiest road ahead, but kids and marriage can be quite the motivator. I probably wouldn't have done any of this work if I didn't have kids. Very glad I did though. Welcome!

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