Bruce Lee once said: don't show the world your weaknesses, it likes to use them against you. I revealed a few of my weaknesses here. So far, no one has used them against me. Thank you for making this a place I can trust in.

I just watched the video from 6 months ago that Rey put out on lust. It's very interesting to me that I seem to have been redirecting my lustful energy into my creative endeavors instead of wasting it on a sexual release. I did this more or less subconsciously. I have had a lot of what you would call medical issues in that I wore out some of my joints pretty badly starting as a teenager and finally had to get 3 of my joints in my legs replaced. Oh the joys of playing hard! But back in the day when I was a kid, no helmets, no hard joint padding at all, unlike now. So I used a lot of my physical energy when I was a teenager to downhill ski, play volleyball, ride horses (Western of course), roller skate (quads baby!) and lots of hiking. So as I got older (like 30) my joints started to really hurt when the weather changed, grinding and so on. I kept putting it off because once you get your knees replaced (or a hip) they only last about 25 years or so they say. So I put it off until I couldn't walk and had to get the surgery. Pain is a really good killer of any sexual desires, let me tell you! So from 2020, when I had to have my right hip replaced up until this last year (2025) I had been suffering with a lot of pain. Still, like Rey said, that energy has to go somewhere. I did a lot of doom scrolling, bed rotting, etc., because I really didn't have any other outlet for my energy at that time and I was using so much of my energy just to heal. After having both knees replace (4 months apart) last year (2025), I started to feel that sexual energy coming back slowly. Still, I was far from feeling 'sexy' because it takes a long time to heal bones and that doesn't feel very 'sexy' but it feels like an existential crisis! I wish I were kidding about the existential crisis part. I felt very alone. Not lonely, but alone. I didn't know anyone else who was going through what I was going through at the time. Being one of the younger people (at least according to my surgeon) to have this done, it was a real wake up call of sorts. I did get through that deep philosophical existential crisis but it was not a good time at all. I'm done with laying in bed all day after having to do that for a while.