If love was true, it would not hurt. But most beings, if not all beings have been hurt by love. Ands that why high have denounced love.

I just watched the video from 6 months ago that Rey put out on lust. It's very interesting to me that I seem to have been redirecting my lustful energy into my creative endeavors instead of wasting it on a sexual release. I did this more or less subconsciously. I have had a lot of what you would call medical issues in that I wore out some of my joints pretty badly starting as a teenager and finally had to get 3 of my joints in my legs replaced. Oh the joys of playing hard! But back in the day when I was a kid, no helmets, no hard joint padding at all, unlike now. So I used a lot of my physical energy when I was a teenager to downhill ski, play volleyball, ride horses (Western of course), roller skate (quads baby!) and lots of hiking. So as I got older (like 30) my joints started to really hurt when the weather changed, grinding and so on. I kept putting it off because once you get your knees replaced (or a hip) they only last about 25 years or so they say. So I put it off until I couldn't walk and had to get the surgery. Pain is a really good killer of any sexual desires, let me tell you! So from 2020, when I had to have my right hip replaced up until this last year (2025) I had been suffering with a lot of pain. Still, like Rey said, that energy has to go somewhere. I did a lot of doom scrolling, bed rotting, etc., because I really didn't have any other outlet for my energy at that time and I was using so much of my energy just to heal. After having both knees replace (4 months apart) last year (2025), I started to feel that sexual energy coming back slowly. Still, I was far from feeling 'sexy' because it takes a long time to heal bones and that doesn't feel very 'sexy' but it feels like an existential crisis! I wish I were kidding about the existential crisis part. I felt very alone. Not lonely, but alone. I didn't know anyone else who was going through what I was going through at the time. Being one of the younger people (at least according to my surgeon) to have this done, it was a real wake up call of sorts. I did get through that deep philosophical existential crisis but it was not a good time at all. I'm done with laying in bed all day after having to do that for a while.

Hello everyone, I've been taking a break latley, hope you're all doing well. I previously canceled the paid membership, as i hadn't been actively working on it. However, I'm going to re-activate it now at a discount from 55$/ month to 33$ / month. It will include the abundance program, the philosophy of the three paths, and the sacred library for now. I'll start working on adding new things more often. I'd love to hear your thoughts and what you might like to see there moving forward. Some have said they'd enjoy some guided meditations and such. Let me know of any specific problems you might be struggling with and i can create some solutions for you. Also, since the philosophy of the three paths has been free lately, i'll wait until friday 1/16 to add it to the paid membership. Stay blessed 🙏

Unfortunatley, we weren't given a human users manual. We are rarely taught how to have a healthy relationship to thoughts... ... so they often drive us crazy because it feels like they are out of our control. At least, that's how it always felt with me. This year i've decided to build a new community to help those who struggle with the monkey mind find peace. If this resonates with you, we’d love to have you here 🙏 https://www.skool.com/monkey-mind-masters/about?ref=c8a8106c6f7148d99c2dc4330777ec2a