Channeling energy to be more creative.

I just watched the video from 6 months ago that Rey put out on lust. It's very interesting to me that I seem to have been redirecting my lustful energy into my creative endeavors instead of wasting it on a sexual release. I did this more or less subconsciously. I have had a lot of what you would call medical issues in that I wore out some of my joints pretty badly starting as a teenager and finally had to get 3 of my joints in my legs replaced. Oh the joys of playing hard! But back in the day when I was a kid, no helmets, no hard joint padding at all, unlike now. So I used a lot of my physical energy when I was a teenager to downhill ski, play volleyball, ride horses (Western of course), roller skate (quads baby!) and lots of hiking.

So as I got older (like 30) my joints started to really hurt when the weather changed, grinding and so on. I kept putting it off because once you get your knees replaced (or a hip) they only last about 25 years or so they say. So I put it off until I couldn't walk and had to get the surgery. Pain is a really good killer of any sexual desires, let me tell you! So from 2020, when I had to have my right hip replaced up until this last year (2025) I had been suffering with a lot of pain. Still, like Rey said, that energy has to go somewhere. I did a lot of doom scrolling, bed rotting, etc., because I really didn't have any other outlet for my energy at that time and I was using so much of my energy just to heal. After having both knees replace (4 months apart) last year (2025), I started to feel that sexual energy coming back slowly. Still, I was far from feeling 'sexy' because it takes a long time to heal bones and that doesn't feel very 'sexy' but it feels like an existential crisis! I wish I were kidding about the existential crisis part. I felt very alone. Not lonely, but alone. I didn't know anyone else who was going through what I was going through at the time. Being one of the younger people (at least according to my surgeon) to have this done, it was a real wake up call of sorts. I did get through that deep philosophical existential crisis but it was not a good time at all. I'm done with laying in bed all day after having to do that for a while.

So during all that time from 2020 until just the beginning of this year, I have styphiled my lust. That doesn't make it right, it just is what it is in that I really didn't have a lot of choice in that matter. Like I said, pain is a great deterrent. It's hard to feel sexy when it literally hurts to move. So once I started to be able to sit in a chair for a while without so much pain, I started to slowly start working on my art once again. The more I worked on my art, the better I got at it and the better I got the more I wanted to do it. Pretty soon I was able to sit in a chair for longer and actually work without my knees getting too stiff as I sat there. The energy went directly into my art and around Christmas this last year, I was able to walk well enough to have a table at a local gaming convention and sell some of my artwork as well as a bunch of resin keychains I made just to make money.

I keep using my lustful energy to create art. Right now I am knitting a Norwegian red hat, as one does in the winter. My pain taught me how to channel this very powerful energy into making art, something I really need to do to satisfy my soul. So in doing so, channeling this very powerful energy, I am able to use it to make some extra money. Granted, I probably give more away than I sell, but I am working towards my goal of making an actual living from my creative endeavors.

It's such a breath of fresh air to be in a spiritual community with like minded individuals who understand more of how this whole 'life' thing works and how energy can be channeled if we just focus and choose to channel it in a productive way.

I have been studying spirituality and metaphysics since high school. I think I finally have found my people. Thanks for having me and letting me share with you. Blessings!

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