there are moments when this presence becomes stronger, and it’s difficult to put into words how much depth and intensity is behind it… it feels like a kind of longing, like an open fire… or maybe more like a glowing ember, because it reaches deeper in those moments, everything I do in the material world suddenly feels secondary, almost distant, and exactly then I feel His presence the clearest does anyone else know this feeling? and if so… how would you try to describe it?

Contrary to what many believe, the inner child has nothing to do with the past or age. It is simply a metaphor for the self before it was shrouded in veils of identities. It is merely a metaphor for our natural state of being, for our essence, which is still hidden beneath personality, conditioning, and trauma. For a self that does not see itself as separate, for a pure, unassimilated self that does not identify with illusions. As Jesus said, the kingdom of heaven is within us, but we can only enter it as children. Or as Nietzsche said: “But tell me, my brothers, what can the child do that even the lion could not do? Why must the preying lion still become a child? The child is innocence and forgetting, a new beginning, a game, a self-propelled wheel, a first movement, a sacred ‘Yes.’ Yes, for the game of creation, my brothers, a sacred ‘Yes’ is needed: the spirit now wills his own will, and he who had been lost to the world now conquers his own world.” The inner child is you, the true you, without the illusions with which it confuses itself.

Discipline is not your problem. Dysregulation is. You don’t lack willpower. You lack control over your own system. That’s why you: start strong… and fall offknow what to do… but don’t do itkeep “self-sabotaging” It’s not because you’re weak. It’s because your system is overloaded, conditioned, and out of alignment. And no amount of discipline will fix a system that’s working against itself. Look at nature. Nothing forces itself to grow. Nothing needs discipline to become what it is. A tree doesn’t try. A child doesn’t force themselves to be. They simply are. And from that being… doing happens naturally. So why do we need discipline? Because we’re not living authentically. We’ve been conditioned. Adapted. Trained to be someone we’re not. So now we try to force a life that doesn’t belong to us. And we call that discipline. But forcing yourself into a life that isn’t yourswill always feel like resistance. Real change doesn’t come from forcing more. It comes from removing what’s false. Destroying everything you are not. Dissolving old patterns. Breaking out of internal prisons. Until there’s nothing left to force. From there: action is natural, because it flows out of our authentic being, You don’t need more discipline. You need to stop being who you’re not.

yesterday I found myself in a simple conversation it was about a small conflict between neighbors nothing important and yet… something in me started to move even though I was standing in front of someone who was peaceful I noticed thoughts arising subtle… but taking sides justifying… building a quiet story inside and with that… something shifted the connection faded a quiet emptiness appeared even those closest to me felt distant empty even my wife… suddenly felt far away and thoughts came heavy… and not very clear until I saw it and in that moment something changed again there was a quiet return a soft feeling of being forgiven Father… only in You I trust please… save my soul Your will be done have mercy on me a sinner amen https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a502RejLz8s

Rey, are you watching the Artemis launch? I know you had mentioned in one or more of your videos something I can't quite recall (exactly) that indicated to me that you were a fellow space aficionado! 🥳 🚀 it's amazing to me what humans have been able to accomplish in the past hundred years. It's unreal.