I notice that there was nothing as a good or bad food in my childhood.And my body weight was high And having a fat body.But I was normal with having that body.Specially at my hostel given by my school.I started to get attracted to some of my friends having a good shape.And later on end of the year. I stared to exercise not in a balanced way. If I do I will do a bit more,or not at all. Later on ended up brainwashed by many contents about nutrition specifically good food and bad food. 😤There is fear about food whenever I went out of my zone like what about my diet…… 🥘 And will be working to balance and have healthy relation with food.

Hope I do not get banned for ... ... reasons. You mighT just need to hear this RIGHT NOW -- Channeling AnAva 1 -- 2026 02 10 19 35 29

For a long time, I felt like I was just following the "spiritual rules"—meditating because I was told to, sitting in silence, and hoping for a breakthrough that never quite came. It felt like trying to listen to a distant radio station through a mountain of white noise. A while back, I decided to go rogue and stop doing what was "expected." I started combining my meditation with specific sound frequencies, and that’s when the walls finally came down. ⛓️ The Breakout For me, this wasn't just about "relaxing." It was about Spiritual Freedom. By using sound to bypass the constant chatter of the ego, I finally started to experience a deep sense of self-awareness that silence alone never gave me. It’s like the frequencies acted as a master key, unlocking parts of my consciousness that were stuck in old patterns of lack and doubt. 🧬 What changed? • Direct Connection: I stopped "trying" to manifest and started feeling the reality of it in my cells. • Self-Sovereignty: I realized I don't need a middleman; I just need to tune my own internal vibration. • Clarity: The "fog" of daily stress lifted, leaving room for true self-governance. 💬 Rebel Check-In: I know this community isn't about following the herd, so I want the raw truth: 1. The Tool: Are you a "silence" purist, or have you discovered the power of hacking your brainwaves with sound? 2. The Freedom: What was the exact moment you realized you were no longer "searching" for your power, but actually living it? 3. The Frequency: If you use sound, which frequency has been your "secret weapon" for breaking through mental barriers lately? I'm curious to see who else is using these "sonic shortcuts" to expand their consciousness. Drop your thoughts below! 👇

I just watched the video from 6 months ago that Rey put out on lust. It's very interesting to me that I seem to have been redirecting my lustful energy into my creative endeavors instead of wasting it on a sexual release. I did this more or less subconsciously. I have had a lot of what you would call medical issues in that I wore out some of my joints pretty badly starting as a teenager and finally had to get 3 of my joints in my legs replaced. Oh the joys of playing hard! But back in the day when I was a kid, no helmets, no hard joint padding at all, unlike now. So I used a lot of my physical energy when I was a teenager to downhill ski, play volleyball, ride horses (Western of course), roller skate (quads baby!) and lots of hiking. So as I got older (like 30) my joints started to really hurt when the weather changed, grinding and so on. I kept putting it off because once you get your knees replaced (or a hip) they only last about 25 years or so they say. So I put it off until I couldn't walk and had to get the surgery. Pain is a really good killer of any sexual desires, let me tell you! So from 2020, when I had to have my right hip replaced up until this last year (2025) I had been suffering with a lot of pain. Still, like Rey said, that energy has to go somewhere. I did a lot of doom scrolling, bed rotting, etc., because I really didn't have any other outlet for my energy at that time and I was using so much of my energy just to heal. After having both knees replace (4 months apart) last year (2025), I started to feel that sexual energy coming back slowly. Still, I was far from feeling 'sexy' because it takes a long time to heal bones and that doesn't feel very 'sexy' but it feels like an existential crisis! I wish I were kidding about the existential crisis part. I felt very alone. Not lonely, but alone. I didn't know anyone else who was going through what I was going through at the time. Being one of the younger people (at least according to my surgeon) to have this done, it was a real wake up call of sorts. I did get through that deep philosophical existential crisis but it was not a good time at all. I'm done with laying in bed all day after having to do that for a while.

.........It’s Meant to Lose Authority. There’s a belief circulating in conscious and spiritual spaces that sounds radical, brave, even enlightened — but only at surface levels: “Let the darkness shine.” It lands emotionally. It feels rebellious. And yet… structurally, it quietly misses the point. 💥 Darkness does not shine. Consciousness does. Darkness isn’t a creative force. It isn’t buried wisdom waiting for permission. It isn’t a sacred rebel that needs a stage. Darkness is simply what exists where awareness hasn’t fully arrived yet. That may sound subtle — but it completely changes how real transformation works. When pain, shame, fear, grief, or rage enter awareness, they don’t become luminous. They become visible. And visibility is not glorification. Visibility is what allows coherence to return. Think of the body 🧠 A wound doesn’t heal because we admire it, analyze it endlessly, or build an identity around it. It heals when circulation returns — when warmth, oxygen, and attention reach tissue that was cut off. The healing isn’t the wound shining. It’s life re-entering what was constrained. 🤔 This is where a lot of shadow work quietly goes off the rails. Honoring pain ≠ elevating it. Seeing a pattern ≠ giving it authority. Naming something ≠ reorganizing it. Yes — pain can reveal truth. Yes — trauma can point to rupture. Yes — suffering can signal misalignment. But none of those are meant to lead. Here’s the part that doesn’t get said loudly enough: 💥 Your shadow is not a second self that needs expression. It’s a misaligned structure that needs coherence. When awareness reaches it, the shadow doesn’t glow ✨ It loses leverage. Not through rejection. Not through force. Not through spiritual bypass. But through understanding — the kind that reorganizes the system instead of dramatizing it. 🤔This is why insight alone so often fails. You can understand your patterns. You can articulate your wounds beautifully. You can “own your shadow.” And still feel hijacked under pressure....