Hey guys! I am interested to hear your thoughts on something. In Buddhism (at least the areas I am familiar with) it seems to be understood that when one is suffering - triggered by something or someone outside of themself, it is not that the thing or person is negative but rather one’s reaction to that stimuli. This had me thinking about boundaries (which by the way I am not great at). I was on the phone with someone and they said and I am paraphrasing “if you set a boundary and the person does not respect your boundary, you simply find someone who does”. This may sound trivial or immature but this is where I am at. Part of me wants to weather through storms and another part of me wants to leave the area where storms happen so much. It feels like too, there is a part of me that feels attached to the storm, so I try to tell the storm to calm down or just try to change the storm or convince it to be more gentle… if you catch my drift. I have also been pondering about the idea in Buddhism that reflects on suffering, the cause of suffering and the cessation of suffering. It didn’t necessarily say to leave the storm as far as I can tell but it does suggest accepting the storm and not wanting or desiring of it - as a result, suffering is reduced. That felt like a bunch of thought sprung together. I feel a bit scattered this morning but yesterday I meditated and went to my temple (I am an omnist of sorts though btw). After not sleeping for months, I slept away from my boyfriend and having meditated, I actually slept. I am continuing on to work on boundaries or understanding these things so I can stay on a balanced path. Much love

I’ve never felt like I belonged in this world and my childhood was unstable to say the least. I’m tired of isolating myself when I know it’s not the answer but just don’t know what direction to go in. I know my community is out there, it’s just hard opening up and being vulnerable. I’m glad to be here.