Welcome Leonel :)

I can moderate :)

I have yet to recover from a lot of the trauma I’ve endured… however, I do believe that shifting my mindset from a victimized hurt person to someone who is grateful to have gone through everything, coupled with a level of acceptance and forgiveness has allowed me to - instead of seeing it as a hinderance, see it as an oddly wrapped gift, a strength builder. I have many insecure, paranoid, what seems like trauma influenced fear based thoughts… which I am in ways learning how to see that as an opportunity rather than an obstacle. A way for me to reflect, use my perspective/experience for a greater or more impactful purpose. One thing I think may help me with the deep pain is talking about it with someone so they can help me like process it and also open myself up to a part of my life I have since closed myself off to. There must be power in radical acceptance, forgiveness and using my experiences to be more useful, loving and powerful in a way I feel good about.

@Kamila Tonia I was emotionally, mentally and physically/sexually abused as a child and through my teenage years by family and others and coped with porn/drugs/sex to an extreme level. I was left with hopelessness and a massive void inside of myself and I am grateful I survived not only the drug use but the lifestyle. However I would not have any of it any other way, I am grateful for every last thing I went through and take it as the process of life. It has made me who I am and in ways I can transform my condition into capacity for caring for others and a much deeper resilience for life and perspective. Someone stated somewhere on YouTube that you know you have forgiven when you realize there was nothing to forgive. We are all people… hurt people hurt people, I can live today, I don’t have to be afraid. Easier said than done by the way. I believe awareness/acceptance is the gift that keeps on giving. I also personally believe that everything is the universe, rather we view it as good or bad or neither is suppose to happen otherwise I wouldn’t be where I am sharing this with you perhaps so… radical acceptance feels freeing to me.

@Leena Heist love this

I appreciate you guys. After going, it seems like keeping the information discussed more private is like custom. I will say I had a great experience though.