I had an exchange on Instagram today and felt like sharing my text here. Maybe it resonates with you in some way. For a long time, I only drank when I was out. With people. At parties. Festivals. Concerts. Social gatherings. Being around others without alcohol felt unbearable. Drinking was not a choice. It was the entry ticket. At home, it was different. I did not miss alcohol at all. Not even a single drop. That alone should have told me something. Then one day, I woke up with a sudden, quiet realization. This body is the most extraordinary thing I will ever own. It keeps me alive without asking. It breathes, heals, adapts, carries me through every single day. It is the only reason I can experience anything at all. Without it, there is no seeing, no feeling, no remembering, no living. It is the only way I can perceive this life, to see, to feel, to smell, to move, to touch this world. This body, this one fragile, intelligent vessel, is the only thing that will truly stay with me until my last breath. And I was pouring poison into it. Again and again. Forcing it to fight, to filter, to clean up after me. I remember thinking: What am I actually doing? So I stopped. Not out of discipline. Not out of fear. But out of respect. Because I realized something even deeper: I was not drinking because I loved alcohol. I was drinking to belong. I would not have been with those people without drinking. I would not have been at those parties. That life only worked as long as I numbed myself enough to tolerate it. And that was the moment it became clear: I was living a life that was not really mine. When you are truly yourself, you do not need alcohol. You do not need cigarettes to hold onto. You do not need anything to escape your own body. The urge to drink is rarely about alcohol. It is a signal that your body already knows you do not belong where you are. That you are not living your real truth. And that truth does not have to look impressive. It might be quiet. It might be sitting alone at home, choosing simplicity over noise. But when it is real, you can feel it. And when it is real, you no longer need to numb yourself to survive it.

Society is on the move. AI is being implemented in several facets of our world and used by a large part of society already. It seems very ignorant to implement a tool as strong as AI without thinking about the consequences for the near and far future. The youth of today has lost the capacity to do simple calculations; without a calculator or smart phone they are lost for answers. And now we have chat gpt; fast access to a huge amount of information, but at the same time less and less people using their brains. Everybody has answers, but very few people can think. It is going to be very interesting!!! But maybe that is just another ego opinion, filled with fear and based on the feeling of losing control. In my mind it is very possible that AI will show us that we are already a very advanced form of AI. That we identify with our 3D body, mind and emotions but that we are a kind of bio-AI. The creator (programmer?) has built an ingenious virtual reality game / experience with rules and several levels. It reminds me of the time I was playing Donkey Kong on a machine in the bar where I spent a lot of my childhood… Maybe it was so attractive because it was completely in sync with the basics of the human game. Human being…. Who is doing the human being? Or…. Who is being the human? Or… who is having the human experience? I have no doubt that it will become clear to me(us) during this life. What an amazing time are we experiencing! ❤️ Jan