🏹 Anya's Sunday Shift Commitment — May 24-31 · PMOS

🏹 Anya's Sunday Shift Commitment — May 24-31

💡 WIN / LESSONS LEARNED

This week marks our official entry into the third trimester, securing a massive advocacy victory with guaranteed weekly medical monitoring from our healthcare team.

In terms of goals, I have been able to maintain 7 pm work-stop pretty consistently. Somatically, I realized my body naturally thrives on a 9:00 PM bedtime and earlier waking window, signaling a necessary shift to wrap up productivity around 5-6 pm.

In terms of mirroring ritual, as I worked through shame in my complex trauma course and shared my weekly focus with my counselor, I realized that I needed to deepen my healing to extend deep compassion to my 10-year-old parentified exile, directly counteracting the pressure to perform so Axella inherits a pure legacy of being and I can start slowly releasing my manager/protector parts that keep me in loops of productivity.

In terms of 10 minutes of useless play, I shifted towards nesting activities while practicing deep presence during daily interactions. Some of the nesting activities I did this week is starting to pack the hospital bag while being present to my grief for my son Axel and also starting personal time capsule to witness the person I was as a child, adolescent, and young adult and to share my personal development with our daughter Axella.

A: Focus: Presence and compassion with the wounded parts of myself

B: DEFINE IT -> The shift from productivity to rest is multi-layered. The systemic shift requires honoring my body's natural 9:00 PM sleep rhythm, moving away from late-night intellectual processing, and stepping completely out of survival mode into an intentional state of thriving. The JournalSpeak session this week will focus on purging any emotions associated with having to grow up fast as a 10-year old who wanted to play. 1 somatic expansion exercise is to practice presence while doing daily 2 pm kick counts. Mindset shift/Mirroring ritual: "Protection does not require perfection; it requires presence. My research and systems are already world-class, and a relaxed, regulated nervous system is the highest medical support I can provide for my placenta. I release the illusion of absolute control and trust my competent Functional Adult to navigate whatever comes with clear, calm authority. " The nesting activity is either to finish time capsule and/or packing the hospital bag.

C: GOOD / BETTER / BEST VERSION

GOOD: Implement a strict 6:00 PM Work-Stop to protect the 9:00 PM bedtime routine + 1 JournalSpeak session a week+ 1 somatic expansion exercise a day

BETTER: Pull the Work-Stop back to 5:00 PM + 1 JournalSpeak session a week+ 1 somatic expansion exercise a day

BEST: All of the above + daily mindset shift mirroring ritual + complete 1 nesting activity

ONE SMALL STEP TO MAKE IT EASIER

Set a hard phone alarm at 4:30 PM labeled "Sanctuary Mode Initiated" to prompt the practical wrap-up of any analytical work.

Other things I am tracking:

Weight: 1 kg this week

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