🧠 Reflection ​ Last week I kinda set the good, better, best goals of bringing more levity and humor. And I've definitely been further along in the book and have been really enjoying it. ​ Haven't quite created my playlist yet of comedy things. ​ But honestly, I'm gonna keep the same goal for the whole month of June. It's gonna be all about the laughs. All about the laughs. ​ 🌿 My Learning ​ Humor in small bites is what I need at this stage of life right now. ​ ✅ Good / Better / Best Goals ​ Good: continue reading my book ​ Better: humor in small bites... little clips of SNL, that kind of thing. More new, and actually more fun. ​ Best: create my comedy playlist (the comedy specials I love are a bit of a time commitment) ​ 🎯 Intentions for This Week ​ → Keep reading the book → Find the laughs in small bites → Let June be all about levity

*"I am big enough to admit that I am often inspired by myself."* ​ *Leslie Knope, Parks and Recreation* ​ She is us and we are her. 💫 ​ What's something you've done recently that you're quietly proud of? 🙋 Share it. We celebrate here.

💡 WIN / LESSONS LEARNED I will start doing my shift posts on Tuesdays now because it flows with my pregnancy schedule (new week starting Wednesdays). It has been quite intense 2 weeks and I did not check in or set a new goal last week, but I will just pick up where I left off. I was able to reach my good goal on most days. I finished work around 6-7 pm, shifting it closer to 6 pm. My average bedtime remains 11:40, but I am grateful for days when I get to bed around 10 pm. I did a JournalSpeak session and in addition to it have been doing IFS sessions with my therapist that have been very complimentary. I have been present for most of kick counting these last two weeks and learned quite a lot about my daughter's personality. I have been able to do daily mindset shift ritual. The only thing that I was not able to do is a nesting/play activity. A: Focus: B: DEFINE IT -> Focus on building mindfullness, presence, and mindset for resting Systemic shift: Continue prioritizing 9-10 pm bedtime. Journaling/reflection: Reflect and upgrade my productivity mindset and time management skills focusing on 3 areas I want to prioritize in the next 6 weeks and what I will fail at (inspired by the book "Four Thousand Weeks" by Oliver Burkeman). Somatic expansion exercise: The STOP skill (https://cogbtherapy.com/mindfulness-meditation-blog/mindfulness-stop-skill). The nesting activity: Continue working on finishing the time capsule and packing the hospital bag. Mindset shift: "Rest, unstructured play, and hobbies are high-priority medical and emotional necessities, not a "selfish luxury." I do not owe a utility fee to exist. Taking time to step away from productivity builds the relational battery required to heal my system and nourish my family." C: GOOD / BETTER / BEST VERSION GOOD: 6:00 PM Work-Stop and the 10:00 PM bedtime routine + 1 Journal+ Do the STOP skill/mindset shift once a day before I do any activity after having breakfast

💡 WIN / LESSONS LEARNED This week I am not only finishing off the 90-day roadmap of movement, fueling, sleep, and recovery, but I am also transitioning from the second trimester of pregnancy into the third. I want to reflect not only on the last 3 weeks that I did not pause to reflect in the community, but also on the last 90 days of shift commitments and pregnancy. The last 90 days were filled with grief, trauma work, profound medical advocacy and learning, incredible personal growth, and learning to be present in moments when survival seems like the only option. As I reflect on the impact of all this meaningful personal transformation, I cannot simply focus on the pure metrics I used to measure how I slept in the last 3 weeks. My Apple Health tells me that in the last month I slept 7 hours and 7 minutes on average. What the data doesn't capture is the many nights where I did somatic and trauma work with myself to calm the parts of me that were deeply grieving for the son that I lost due to the illness I could not detect, and parts of me that are desperately trying to keep my daughter alive while handling limited and inaccurate data to keep her safe. The data does not capture how my brain activity trying to process all the medical data and write the scripts to make me a "perfect patient who is reasonable and should be heard," and the nervous system that was fired up by perceived dismissiveness and by sitting in front of the computer for a full work day doing research. The data also does not capture the dysregulation of the nervous system that is trying to process a whole day spent at the hospital trying to make sure I am ok and the baby is ok. What I am trying to say is thank you to my body that operated on the average of the 7 hours and 17 minutes of sleep like a whole team of highly qualified trauma therapists, medical researchers, and advocacy specialists. I have learned to see inflammation and stored cholesterol as a way my body prepares to fight for my needs in light of a history of trauma and navigating a difficult medical system. I am so grateful that in this season I have an opportunity to shift from creating structure that held me through one of the most painful and stressful seasons into cultivating rest, lightheartedness, and healing before our little girl arrives in July.

💡 WIN / LESSONS LEARNED This week marks our official entry into the third trimester, securing a massive advocacy victory with guaranteed weekly medical monitoring from our healthcare team. In terms of goals, I have been able to maintain 7 pm work-stop pretty consistently. Somatically, I realized my body naturally thrives on a 9:00 PM bedtime and earlier waking window, signaling a necessary shift to wrap up productivity around 5-6 pm. In terms of mirroring ritual, as I worked through shame in my complex trauma course and shared my weekly focus with my counselor, I realized that I needed to deepen my healing to extend deep compassion to my 10-year-old parentified exile, directly counteracting the pressure to perform so Axella inherits a pure legacy of being and I can start slowly releasing my manager/protector parts that keep me in loops of productivity. In terms of 10 minutes of useless play, I shifted towards nesting activities while practicing deep presence during daily interactions. Some of the nesting activities I did this week is starting to pack the hospital bag while being present to my grief for my son Axel and also starting personal time capsule to witness the person I was as a child, adolescent, and young adult and to share my personal development with our daughter Axella. A: Focus: Presence and compassion with the wounded parts of myself B: DEFINE IT -> The shift from productivity to rest is multi-layered. The systemic shift requires honoring my body's natural 9:00 PM sleep rhythm, moving away from late-night intellectual processing, and stepping completely out of survival mode into an intentional state of thriving. The JournalSpeak session this week will focus on purging any emotions associated with having to grow up fast as a 10-year old who wanted to play. 1 somatic expansion exercise is to practice presence while doing daily 2 pm kick counts. Mindset shift/Mirroring ritual: "Protection does not require perfection; it requires presence. My research and systems are already world-class, and a relaxed, regulated nervous system is the highest medical support I can provide for my placenta. I release the illusion of absolute control and trust my competent Functional Adult to navigate whatever comes with clear, calm authority. " The nesting activity is either to finish time capsule and/or packing the hospital bag.