Since Dan wants more engagement, I will reluctantly post something..
I am currently going through the different contents, be it in podcasts, blog posts or courses.
I made some progress since joining, as I worried a lot about my reputation, but I enjoyed the blog post about being non-defensive which cleared my beliefs concerning someone badmouthing me would propagate to everyone in the room. At the same time I still have some shame about my current situation: not having a job, living with my parents, that could be used against me, so being non-defensive would be difficult I guess in these cases. So I guess the first step would be for me to stop rejecting myself because of that.