Up Against It!!! · ADHD Harmony™

Up Against It!!!

I have made some very significant changes in the way of think in the way I move every day and the way I eat in the last four weeks. This deep deep work has uncovered patterns and voices that it has been challenging to see and to clear. I was in a great space yesterday morning after the call. I came to work, got in a car to drive it for a mechanic and when I reached over to open his door my back tweaked. Every vertebrae in my lower spine T12 and below is pronated, prolapsed, degenerated, slipped - there are many very clear reasons for the excruciating nerve pain that in the past has laid me up for weeks. It's also a pattern that I was so programmed that I had to earn my place, in the world, and my family, in school perfectly or I was not worthy of love or acceptance. I broke my back when I was 19 and it became a great excuse. Yesterday, I know KNOW it was much more about my body resisting this change and screaming for its comfort zone of sedentary, safe and pretty boring life, barely subsisting financially. Already too long a story to go through everything, but I did the medical things I knew would prevent it getting worse. But I also had a great conversation with SAGE about the other aspects of this pain, the timing right as I'm getting ready to be pushed off the cliff and fly! I see it, and I am not in debilitating nerve pain right now although my low back is really tight and sore it's a pain I can deal with. I know this is what is happening and it's still really hard guys!!!

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