Smiles!!! · ADHD Harmony™

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Smiles!!!

I was nervous about going back to modern dance tonight after being off last week due to my injury. Extra pains and flare ups started last night in fearful anticipation. But, I did it! And, did it pretty well! I generally leave rehearsals for this company feeling down, heavily feeling that I'm not as good as I was before, and using the 45 minute drive home to criticize every little thing that I might have not done well enough, or said well enough, and beat myself up. Which just continues when I get into bed.

Tonight, I smiled on the drive home! This might seem small, but is huge for me. I've been searching for that happiness again in dance. The self-criticism and health issues took that away from me at some point.

Instead of the usual negative thoughts of every little mistake, I drove home smiling and proud of myself. I found myself saying "you are powerful and capable" versus the mean things I usually say to myself. Wow. I'm actually changing and improving. That darn doubt cockroach in my head can run away and shove off for now lol. Grateful and smiling! 🙏🤗❤️

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Smiles!!!