Difficult evening. It will get better. I need Ireland..

Watched Eurovision with my AuDHD son and wife. She has a pounding headache. She always has one, but they're ususally between 1 and 3 on a scale of 10. I think this one is an 11 or 12 based on how she is acting. She's laid in bed all day, other than come out to watch Eurovision, and then went back to bed. I was surprised she came out for Eurovision, but she did it for our son.

They have a few favorites. I missed some of the semifinals Tuesday and Thursday. Of course, I have some questions about who sang what again type questions. That irritates my son. He also said he would love to hear what Graham Norton would have to say after UK. I got the program working on my phone through a VPN since we're in Florida. Of course, there was no audio. Not unless I turned on audio descriptions. That wasn't going to work. I didn't get it to work in time for that. After fighting with the VPN, I was finally able to get it up on my phone. I then would hit pause and play back to back so that I could make sure they were in sync. I was proud of myself. I had the music playing along with the TV for the surround sound effect. So, Graham Norton comes on and saying stuff. He tells me to shut it off he's trying to hear. There was no music, no performance, just a video postcard which was the performer walking through Vienna, no dialogue. He got real mad, so I shut it off. I try and help and it backfires. Just prior to that, I was working on the one of the tools, subtraction discovery. While I'm talking into it to provide my answers, my son walks in. I pointed out of the room. He just walked in. But I didn't handle it well. I put me recording my pitiful whatever question I was answering at the time, before him. I made it out in time for the show. I stayed through the whole thing even though, we had some rough moments. We had a top 5 and 2 of my 3 made the top. Thanks Will Ferrell and Icelend. LOL IYKYK As mentioned once before, he knows this show inside out from when it began to tonight. He knew things about the winning team that you wouldn't know, but he pays attention. I'm not saying anything more than that. Just in case someone hasn't watched and have to watch it on replay. Anyways, mine didn't win. I think she should have.

So, after all that, I finally read the report because I couldn't before the show. I didn't like what it said. It's not wrong, I just don't like what it says. That is going to be the biggest problem with this program, me. I get i my own way for progress. It's like I don't want to. If I do, I have to deal with things I don't want to that are heavy.

So, that's all. That's enough. I'll go make Sage bored for a while forcing it to listen to me. OH well. That's what Sage is for. I've used the AI Coach with my online provider and twice it locked me out because it didn't like what I said. It took things literal and still hasn't "learned". Best advice is for me to call 988 crisis hotline. I'm not even in crisis. Every few days, after my doctor unlocks it as he is the only one who can, it reminds me to check in. I'm afraid to. When I needed it a few weeks back, it shut me out. This was before here. I don't know why I'm sharing so much. Not for pity, I don't like that and I'm not like that. We're supposed to be here for each other.

I want to go back to our honeymoon in 2000. I want to drive out of Dublin (eventually), and do our scenic drive and look at a bed and breakfast book, see where we were, and just book then. We did have our first and last night's booked in advance. The only negative portion of the trip was that I couldn't get out of Dublin. No matter how hard I tried, we'd end up back at the river. We did make it into south Dublin LOL. We asked for directions a couple times. "Take the M5, it will be right there". M5 ended before it got there. But, when we got out of Dublin, which by the way I do love it there. I loved the B&B we stayed in, and there was a pub up the street. We went to the Guinness brewery. My favorite beer. Driving south along the coast through Cobh, Waterford, Ring of Kerry, Dingle peninsula. I loved how simple life looked. We definitly stood out as "non-local" at the pub we stopped at in the Dingle Peninsula somewhere. I remember asking for some fries (chips), but they said they didn't have any because they hadn't received any potatoes yet and it sounded like it was going to be more than just the day. But, it seemed so peaceful. The green. The sheep herds that would be in the road, driving through a circular tunnel through a small side of a mountain that was barely big enough for one car. It was just beautiful. My wife promised me when we had our 10th anniversary we would be able to go back. We had two kids by then. We have traveled some with them, but it's been on a couple cruises (my wife used to be a travel agent, so she found good rates). We did make it to Jamaica with the boys to an all inclusive. That's when I had steady income and a decent one. But, if I think of Ireland, I am peaceful. I see these ads to buy a place on an island that's part of Ireland. We'd have Starlink, I think, so there would be interent. But it would be a peaceful life, at least that's how I make it to be. And, all the problems left in the US and don't look back. That won't happen.

So, thank you Ireland for helping me through some tough times. Unless you live in Dublin, it's hard to get around there. There is an occasional street sign, but not all the time. Sometimes painted on the side of a building. But, it was an adventure. OK. I could go on and on. I needed to get out of whatever I was heading to above. I probably should have just said all this to Sage. Oh well. It's here now.

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