Actually winning today! · ADHD Harmony™

Actually winning today!

Today I managed to watch a live webinar and feel a sense of empowerment that I haven't felt ever. I am noticing that I have quite a few small wins, which is ironic right now as my life has been turned upside down, but coz of this, things are moving along now.

I have signed up for a few things including this to give me much needed guidance and I am feeling rather positive about a good change at last. I am learning to change my bad beliefs about myself, and as strange as it feels, unsafe as it feels, I feel like I'm beginning to smile again. If it wasn't for all the wonderful people out there, like Jim, offering these free challenges, masterclasses etc, I definitely wouldn't be feeling like I'm winning.

Also today, I managed to get put the house and to an appointment with the help of my aunt. It went very well, although I was nervous, for once I managed to calm my nerves and hold back the fear I was originally feeling.

Even with my back deciding it wanted to give me pain (I always find I get lower backache when I'm going through a tough time), I was able to dull the pain with positivity and take my focus off of it. Before I went out, I had the usual, I don't want to go, it's out of my comfort zone, but then I recognised that and knew why now, so I was able to acknowledge the feeling, understand it and be ok with it, instead of spiralling and having a panic attack. So that's another win today.

It's been a long day, I'm tired, but it's not over yet and now I shall hang the washing up and then make dinner, then after dinner, I'll have another webinar on fibromyalgia to attend, so I look forward to that 😊

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